John,

 

I wish you well in your job search and caring for your loved ones.

 

It's been nearly 14 months since my mother died suddenly. At times it's amazing to me that so much time has passed since I've seen or spoken to her, and then at other times I realize that on this side of heaven I'll never see or speak to her again. That's always a sobering thought. I do think I'm doing pretty well though. I still haven't packed away  mom's things, but am making arrangements for storage. It's taken this long to get to that point.

 

Another interesting thing I've noticed is my change in attitude about death. Six weeks ago I had a major surgery and prior to my mother's passing I would have been very afraid of not waking up following surgery. But with this recent surgery I wasn't afraid. I honestly felt that if I didn't wake up, I'd at least see my mom again and that gave me a real since of peace. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm glad I came through things fine, but if I hadn't being with Mom again sure would have been nice.

 

 

God Bless everyone.

Amanda