How much is one person supposed to take? Last
Mother's Day my family and I were celebrating Mother's
Day with my mom eating pizza, sitting outside at home
and just being together? This Mother's Day I'm
grieving over the unexpected loss of my mom, yet as a
preschool teacher, I have to act all cheery and put my
own personal feelings aside and have the children talk
about their mom's and put on a Mother's Day Tea and
Pamperping session and have the children make Mother's
Day presents? My dad died when I was 6 so not
celebrating Father's Day and doing Father's Day things
for others, was okay, I was used to it. But this is
all so fresh. If that wasn't hard enough on this 31
year old, on June 6th will be her birthday and then
June 18th, will be the first anniversary. Some of
this I expected, I just didn't think it would hurt so
much. To add onto all of that, my sister-in-law and
brother were pregnant with twins. That was SO
exciting, something to help us to look forward to!!!
As of last week, they found out that my sister-in-law
has a very rare case of twin pregnancy (the twins
shared a sack and you don't want that) As of today,
Baby A died. I know that my mom is in Heaven holding
her first granddaughter. That is very comforting.
But on the other hand, how much can one person/family
take? My mom wasn't sick, she died of complications
from a surgery. Why is it that some people have to
take so much, yet other people nothing bad happens?
Why did I have to lose both of my parents by 30 when
most people my age haven't even lost one? Why in less
than I years time I lose my mom (who was my best
friend) and one of my twin nieces that I didn't even
get a chance to know? Not that I would wish this pain
and hurt on anyone else, because I wouldn't, it's just
that sometimes life can be so unfair. I know that God
doesn't give us anything that we can't handle, but I
feel like I'm on that breaking point! (although they
say that's when God gives you more because he knows
you can handle more.) Plus, my roommate is moving out
and getting married and we've lived together for over
4 years (which is still a form of grief, just a
different type). I just don't know how much more I
can take!
Stacey

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