Monday I will be going on vacation for 2 weeks  in which I should be
able to keep all road blocks in place, as slots are within my reach,
even on vacation....I had a nice day today, shopping, and then
celebrated son's and grandson's birthday at my daughters.  I can
remember in prior years of racing home from the casino late for birthday
dinner, smelling of smoke, making excuses....so bad....but today, that
did not happen.

   In the beginning of the recovery process one must remember not to
become complacent, one must always keep their guard up and keep those
road blocks in place.  I will have time on vacation to reflect, work on
my financial plan and rest.  It is hard work lying all the time and for
a few weeks, I can replace anxiety over my situation with good
relaxation and my road block will be with me....Once I resolve this
mess, I am turning finance responsibilites over and try to be happy
being on some kind of alllowance....It is hard for me to give up
control, but I can see now that the fog has cleared some, I have no
control, for if I did I would not be where I am today.

I will limited or no internet access while on vacation, so I wish the
best to everyone to have the strength to stay away from their particular
demon....control your addiction, do not let your addition control
you.......for if you are not planning on recovery, what are you
planning???Take Care, YCGF  Dianne