Hi Sharon,

Firstly let me say no matter how bad things get for you - you're not
alone. I don't have any support from a partner or family even, but I
don't feel alone since I joined Kaz's and now GPG.

You sound like you're going through a tough time, but trust me it
will get better. Not quickly, certainly not overnight, but in time
everything in your life will improve once you take gambling out of
the equation.

Have you considered seeking medical advice? The gambling aside, a
lot of us also suffer from depression. It's not just a case of the
blues, it's a medical condition which can be treated. In the past
I've been put on anti-depressants, and whilst they're not a magic
cure, they helped me to deal with things on a day to day basis
without wanting to just stay under the doona all day. I was very
teary, sometimes for no reason. Thought I was going crazy. My doctor
prescribed one of the new type of anti-depressants which aren't
addictive, and don't send you into zombie land. At that time I was
still gambling, so the good effects were countered by the depressed
state my gambling put me in. The important thing is that I did
manage to function for a few months when I really thought I'd
totally lost the plot. They take 2-4 weeks to kick in, but Sharon it
might be worthwhile having a chat to your doctor.

You've done really well to ban yourself from the casino, if you're
feeling that low you've got nothing to lose by having a chat to your
doctor about the possibility that you could be depressed.

If your husband isn't a CG it's probably natural he'd think that
once you'd banned yourself, you'd get happier. Would he be open to
checking out Gamanon? Our disease affects everyone close to us.
Gamanon can help him come to terms with your illness, and what he
needs to do to both support you, and heal himself. I'm not sure if
you go to GA, if you do it would probably be easier to talk to your
husband about Gamanon.

Sharon hang in there - early recovery is no picnic, but the
alternative is a nightmare.

Love,

Jen - LDG 12 Aug 2004


--- In GettingPastGambling@yahoogroups.com, "Sharon"
<sharon_putnam2001@y...> wrote:
>
> Hi Linda, I have been trying to stay off of th eputer a lot this
> weekend to avoid going there. I have been posting at that site
> since last jan. So I autmatically want to go and read and see how
> everyone is. That is what I am doing to deal with it...stay
away.
>
> I am still angry at Her and I am finding that not reading any of
her
> posts helps with that too.
>
> I have bigger problems right now..my husband wants to split. He
told
> me tonight he can't take anymore of my being miserable. He siad he
> has been trying for 14 yrs to make me happy and he gives up. Well
> not just like gives up,but he says I am killing him. NO matter
what
> he does I am not happy. More to it and said,but right now I am
> numb. I don't even feel anything yet..product of gambling?
> Then I think being numb is not good,because when you feel nothing
> about something it is easier to gamble,but that does not matter
> either. I can't go. I am banned. So no I am thinking how in the
hell
> do I deal with this without gambling..I have nowhere to run.
>
> He is right I am miserable..I want to gamble and it is very hard
for
> me not to. What does he expect. Yes I have been miserable for 14
> yrs..I was gambling. I just don't know what to think right now.
> Exept that th eone person I thought was always going to be there
for
> me is gone. I am really alone.
>
> Sharon. Day 21