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#48531 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Mon Jul 13, 2009 11:34 am
Subject: Justice Department Covers Up
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Justice Department Covers Up 
 
 
 


"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."

~ Martin Luther King Jr.


#48530 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sun Jul 12, 2009 10:06 pm
Subject: Toy Store
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Toy Store
 
Nightmare I had today:

I was living in a shopping mall but everyone acted like this was normal because there were other people living there too. My Aunt from FL and my sister flew in from other states to visit me, and this disturbed me greatly because I wondered, "I've had nothing to do with either one of them in years. Why are they here?" I didn't want to spend much time chatting so I quickly explained that someone was blocking me from suing CSA/GNRP and then I ended the conversation. Both my Aunt and my sister eyeballed each other and looked away.
 
At that moment, someone attacked me from behind (poked me in the back, pulled my hair, etc.) but when I turned around no one was there. Still, I could hear a man's voice whispering, "Terri!" and "I'm going to get you!" so I started swinging at the air and urging, "Stop that! Get away from me!" It grew rather quiet in the mall. When I realized people were watching me I wanted to crawl under a rock. 
 
Then it dawned on me that the voice sounded just like my Uncle Tommy. I thought, "Oh, I get it! He's invisible and playing games so I look like I've lost my mind...talking to myself and hitting at nothing!" I knew that no one around me would help so I tried calling someone (I've no idea who), yet, there were other people on the line. Speaking of which, in waking life there are times it sounds like I am on someone else's line when I try to use the phone. Anyway, I decided to run to this little toy store at the other end of the mall.
 
A man named Brian worked there (not Swanton). I had a crush on him but he never expressed any interest in me. All I remember about him otherwise is that there was a rumor he was becoming "cynical" working in the toy store for so long because he encountered a lot of "brats" who "broke his merchandise." I hesitated after entering his shop, "He's probably not going to believe me," but I spit out what was going on anyway.
 
Brian was concerned and pulled what looked like a huge toy gun off a top shelf.
 
"This is a MODEL 666 EXPOSURE MACHINE!" he announced. "It emits a ray that can make any hidden enemy materialize...to a degree anyway. So next time you hear someone near you, don't say anything. Just give me a look and I will zap him!"   
 
A few minutes later I heard my Uncle Tommy behind me again and I kept giving Brian looks but he was distracted by a customer. Even after the customer left Brian wouldn't even glance in my direction. I was so disillusioned, "Oh, no, please don't abandon me. I've no one else in the world to count on," but Brian seemed to have forgotten all about me. 
 
Then I woke up.
 
Terri  
 
"...I could see that there were thousands of rats, with their eyes blazing red, like his, only smaller. Then he held up his hand,
and they all stopped, and I thought he seemed to be saying: "Rats! Rats! Rats! Thousands! All these will I give you! If you will obey me!"

~ Renfield (Dracula 1931)

 


#48529 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sun Jul 12, 2009 2:22 pm
Subject: Hooker
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Hi Folks!
 
A long while back when I went to family about CSA/EHRS breaking the law, one of their solutions was that I go on SSD if this was causing me distress. The more I thought about it, I failed to see how SSD is the answer to crime. Why should a victim have to go on SSD because law enforcement won't even acknowledge the victim's complaints and won't do anything about whomever is blocking attorneys from suing for the victim? That's absurd!
 
At the same time, that's what you get when you ask for advice from alchies and druggies. I.e., my Aunt who does or did live in FL was always a junkie. When repairs very first came up I told her I was not qualified for assistance due to my income, and her repulsive suggestion was that I just give repairmen "blow jobs" in exchange for repairs in that case. I was absolutely appalled.
 
In hindsight, I realize it was just projection. She'd do anything for drugs, so she was encouraging me to be the same when it came to repairs. That would be like trying to transform Mary Poppins into a hooker!    
 
Terri
 


"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back in the same box."

~Italian Proverb


#48528 From: End_Verbal_Abuse@yahoogroups.com
Date: Sun Jul 12, 2009 8:18 am
Subject: File - EMERGENCY LINKS AND NUMBERS!
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EMERGENCY LINKS AND NUMBERS RELATED TO VERBAL ABUSE, DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, SEXUAL
ASSAULT, SUICIDE, CODEPENDENCY, AND MORE

These *numbers and links are automatically sent by Yahoo! Groups to everyone
upon joining EVA and CoDependents, and every two weeks to the lists. Those who
have seen them already and do not need them yet again can just delete this post
every time it comes up. Also, please remember that a volume of articles can be
found on these same topics in the EVA archives at:

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/End_Verbal_Abuse/messages/1?l=1


and CoDependents archives at:

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/CoDependents/messages/1?l=1


*I am not able to (repeatedly) check all the numbers and links I am given so,
please, if any of these are or do become invalid let me know ASAP! Thank you.


NATIONAL SUICIDE PREVENTION LIFELINE

1-800-723-8255

(TTY) 1-800-799-4TTY (4889)

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/help/default.aspx


NATIVE AMERICAN SUICIDE HOTLINE
1-877-209-1266


SIOUX FALLS, SD
211 for the 211 HELP!Line
or (605) 339-HELP (4357)


NATIONAL HOTLINE
1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)


NATIONAL NUMBER
1-800-273-TALK (8255)


NATIONAL DOMESTIC VIOLENCE HOTLINE

1-800-799-SAFE (7233)

(TTY) 1-800-787-3224


NATIONAL SEXUAL ASSAULT HOTLINE

1-800-656-HOPE


911 For Women: A list of resources for female targets of domestic violence.

http://www.aidv-usa.com/Resources.htm


MenWeb: For physically battered and verbally abused men; the hidden side of
domestic violence.

http://www.batteredmen.com/index.htm


WomensLaw.org: State-by-state legal information and resources for domestic
violence.

http://www.womenslaw.org/


Dr. Irene's Verbal Abuse (Site!): Women can be abusers, too, and in some unions
there are two abusers. Dr. Irene's site covers all types of abuse by men and
women as well as codependency, love addiction, and so much more!

http://drirene.com


BPD411.org: An Internet-based information service and support group. Their
purpose is to provide a safe environment for the education, healing and recovery
of persons who are in a relationship with someone who exhibits traits of
Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Being involved with someone with BPD
traits is disorienting, painful and often damaging.

http://www.bpd411.org


Feeling Suicidal: If you are feeling suicidal now, please STOP long enough to
read this website. It will only take a few moments of your time!

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/


Suicide and Suicide Prevention: Authoritative, in-depth information about all
aspects of suicide and suicide prevention.

http://www.psycom.net/depression.central.suicide.html


DR Ivan's Depression Central: This site is Internet's central clearinghouse for
information on all types of depressive disorders and on the most effective
treatments for individuals suffering from all forms of depression.

http://www.psycom.net/depression.central.html


Codependence: The Dance of Wounded Souls by Robert Burney. Robert is an author
and codependence/grief counselor who assists with "Twelve Step Codependency
Recovery, Inner Child/Emotional Healing, and Dysfunctional Relationships." His
website has a volume of free information on said topics.

http://joy2meu.com/


Healing from Loss, Abandonment, and Fear: When we grow up with fear and shame we
become adults who live with fear and shame. Accompanying these intense feelings
is a pervasive, chronic sense of loss, ranging anywhere from serious to
profound. The sensation of this loss goes by various names--unhappiness,
hopelessness, depression, emptiness, insecurity, anxiety, boredom. Whatever the
words we use, these wounds have troubled our very spirit. We need to change our
course by putting the cause of our pain in its proper perspective.

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/Healing_from_Loss_Abandonment_and_Fear

#48527 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sun Jul 12, 2009 12:37 am
Subject: Re: So What?
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Hi Folks!
 
This is why I will not go on SSD. If I did, the criminals would win.
 
Terri
 


"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back in the same box."

~Italian Proverb



 
In a message dated 7/11/2009 2:18:09 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:


Of course, if the scenario below went on year after year and F, P, and S ever found this too overwhelming, they could just go on medication. At the same time - even though medication may help ease their anxiety, for instance - external circumstances would remain the same. Ergo, in order for the abuse to not matter anymore they'd have to be on medication so strong they were nothing but zombies. No problem. F, P, and S could all then just go on SSD!
 
Quandary concluded
 
Terri
 
 
In a message dated 7/11/2009 12:20:17 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:


Out of curiosity, do you think the temperature inside of F's, P's, and S's office is consistently cool this time of year or that the vents intermittently blow warm to hot air? If the latter ever happened, they'd have no need for concern because all they'd have to do is snap their fingers and it would be fixed.

Terri
 
 
In a message dated 7/11/2009 11:20:08 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

So What?
 
Yolanda Flores (F), Charyn Palmisano (P), and Brian (S) go into work one morning and notice that their work chairs have collapsed, their office roofs are leaking, etc. and they request that these be replaced/repaired. However, all they ever get in return are notices stating they failed to submit the proper paperwork. F, P, and S know this is nonsense so they complain about the repairs not being done. 
 
Later that week...
 
Whenever F, P, and S ask AE (Any Employee) to do something, AE replies, "Sorry, I'm afraid I can't get involved!" and "Why don't you ask another employee?" Who indicates they can't get involved either/suggests they contact some other employee, too, so that F, P, and S just spin their wheels. 
 
When F, P, and S send e-mails to/leave phone messages for AE, these are never returned.
 
Soon F, P, and S notice that everyone in the building is giving them the silent treatment; acting like they don't even exist and everyone couldn't care less if they are injured.
 
F, P, and S try to tell their colleagues about what is being done to them at CSA/GNRP, but their colleagues just look the other way or don't comment.
 
F, P, and S try to tell their families about what is being done to them at CSA/GNRP, but their families aren't supportive in the least. Insisting, "Can't you just get another job?"
 
It's impossible for F, P, and S to do their jobs properly because no one will answer them or help them with any duties (or in any other capacity for that matter).
 
Out of desperation, F, P, and S report the conditions they have to work in to their union, but their union never acknowledges any of their complaints.
 
I'd really like to see F, P, and S just shrug their shoulders and say, "They're doing this to me because I complained about office repairs not being done...Ah, so what? I can continue to work under these circumstances. I refuse to let any of this bother me or interfere with me getting my job done!"
 
Terri 

#48526 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sat Jul 11, 2009 5:13 pm
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Of course, if the scenario below went on year after year and F, P, and S ever found this too overwhelming, they could just go on medication. At the same time - even though medication may help ease their anxiety, for instance - external circumstances would remain the same. Ergo, in order for the abuse to not matter anymore they'd have to be on medication so strong they were nothing but zombies. No problem. F, P, and S could all then just go on SSD!
 
Quandary concluded
 
Terri
 
 
In a message dated 7/11/2009 12:20:17 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:


Out of curiosity, do you think the temperature inside of F's, P's, and S's office is consistently cool this time of year or that the vents intermittently blow warm to hot air? If the latter ever happened, they'd have no need for concern because all they'd have to do is snap their fingers and it would be fixed.

Terri
 
 
In a message dated 7/11/2009 11:20:08 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

So What?
 
Yolanda Flores (F), Charyn Palmisano (P), and Brian (S) go into work one morning and notice that their work chairs have collapsed, their office roofs are leaking, etc. and they request that these be replaced/repaired. However, all they ever get in return are notices stating they failed to submit the proper paperwork. F, P, and S know this is nonsense so they complain about the repairs not being done. 
 
Later that week...
 
Whenever F, P, and S ask AE (Any Employee) to do something, AE replies, "Sorry, I'm afraid I can't get involved!" and "Why don't you ask another employee?" Who indicates they can't get involved either/suggests they contact some other employee, too, so that F, P, and S just spin their wheels. 
 
When F, P, and S send e-mails to/leave phone messages for AE, these are never returned.
 
Soon F, P, and S notice that everyone in the building is giving them the silent treatment; acting like they don't even exist and everyone couldn't care less if they are injured.
 
F, P, and S try to tell their colleagues about what is being done to them at CSA/GNRP, but their colleagues just look the other way or don't comment.
 
F, P, and S try to tell their families about what is being done to them at CSA/GNRP, but their families aren't supportive in the least. Insisting, "Can't you just get another job?"
 
It's impossible for F, P, and S to do their jobs properly because no one will answer them or help them with any duties (or in any other capacity for that matter).
 
Out of desperation, F, P, and S report the conditions they have to work in to their union, but their union never acknowledges any of their complaints.
 
I'd really like to see F, P, and S just shrug their shoulders and say, "They're doing this to me because I complained about office repairs not being done...Ah, so what? I can continue to work under these circumstances. I refuse to let any of this bother me or interfere with me getting my job done!"
 
Terri
 


"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back in the same box."

~Italian Proverb 

 


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Date: Sat Jul 11, 2009 3:20 pm
Subject: Re: So What?
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Out of curiosity, do you think the temperature inside of F's, P's, and S's office is consistently cool this time of year or that the vents intermittently blow warm to hot air? If the latter ever happened, they'd have no need for concern because all they'd have to do is snap their fingers and it would be fixed.

Terri
 


"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back in the same box."

~Italian Proverb



 
In a message dated 7/11/2009 11:20:08 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:


So What?
 
Yolanda Flores (F), Charyn Palmisano (P), and Brian Swanton (S) go into work one morning and notice that their work chairs have collapsed, their office roofs are leaking, etc. and they request that these be replaced/repaired. However, all they ever get in return are notices stating they failed to submit the proper paperwork. F, P, and S know this is nonsense so they complain about the repairs not being done. 
 
Later that week...
 
Whenever F, P, and S ask AE (Any Employee) to do something, AE replies, "Sorry, I'm afraid I can't get involved!" and "Why don't you ask another employee?" Who indicates they can't get involved either/suggests they contact some other employee, too, so that F, P, and S just spin their wheels. 
 
When F, P, and S send e-mails to/leave phone messages for AE, these are never returned.
 
Soon F, P, and S notice that everyone in the building is giving them the silent treatment; acting like they don't even exist and everyone couldn't care less if they are injured.
 
F, P, and S try to tell their colleagues about what is being done to them at CSA/GNRP, but their colleagues just look the other way or don't comment.
 
F, P, and S try to tell their families about what is being done to them at CSA/GNRP, but their families aren't supportive in the least. Insisting, "Can't you just get another job?"
 
It's impossible for F, P, and S to do their jobs properly because no one will answer them or help them with any duties (or in any other capacity for that matter).
 
Out of desperation, F, P, and S report the conditions they have to work in to their union, but their union never acknowledges any of their complaints.
 
I'd really like to see F, P, and S just shrug their shoulders and say, "They're doing this to me because I complained about office repairs not being done...Ah, so what? I can continue to work under these circumstances. I refuse to let any of this bother me or interfere with me getting my job done!"
 
Terri
 


"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back in the same box."

~Italian Proverb 


#48524 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sat Jul 11, 2009 2:19 pm
Subject: So What?
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So What?
 
Yolanda Flores (F), Charyn Palmisano (P), and Brian Swanton (S) go into work one morning and notice that their work chairs have collapsed, their office roofs are leaking, etc. and they request that these be replaced/repaired. However, all they ever get in return are notices stating they failed to submit the proper paperwork. F, P, and S know this is nonsense so they complain about the repairs not being done. 
 
Later that week...
 
Whenever F, P, and S ask AE (Any Employee) to do something, AE replies, "Sorry, I'm afraid I can't get involved!" and "Why don't you ask another employee?" Who indicates they can't get involved either/suggests they contact some other employee, too, so that F, P, and S just spin their wheels. 
 
When F, P, and S send e-mails to/leave phone messages for AE, these are never returned.
 
Soon F, P, and S notice that everyone in the building is giving them the silent treatment; acting like they don't even exist and everyone couldn't care less if they are injured.
 
F, P, and S try to tell their colleagues about what is being done to them at CSA/GNRP, but their colleagues just look the other way or don't comment.
 
F, P, and S try to tell their families about what is being done to them at CSA/GNRP, but their families aren't supportive in the least. Insisting, "Can't you just get another job?"
 
It's impossible for F, P, and S to do their jobs properly because no one will answer them or help them with any duties (or in any other capacity for that matter).
 
Out of desperation, F, P, and S report the conditions they have to work in to their union, but their union never acknowledges any of their complaints.
 
I'd really like to see F, P, and S just shrug their shoulders and say, "They're doing this to me because I complained about office repairs not being done...Ah, so what? I can continue to work under these circumstances. I refuse to let any of this bother me or interfere with me getting my job done!"
 
Terri
 


"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back in the same box."

~Italian Proverb


#48523 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Jul 10, 2009 11:12 am
Subject: PATHOLOGIZE THE VICTIM
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PATHOLOGIZE THE VICTIM
 
"...the complaints of a victim are likely to be met with hostility and suspicion by the offender's parents or siblings, for instance. Instead of reining in the abusive conduct, they are likely to pathologize the victim ("she is a nutcase") or label her ("she is a whore or a b*tch")."
 
"The deceived are deliberately taken for a premeditated ride by the abuser. He feeds them false information, manipulates their judgment, proffers plausible scenarios to account for his indiscretions, soils the opposition, charms them, appeals to their reason, or to their emotions, and promises the moon."
 
- Dr. Sam Vaknin
 
 
 
"Victim-blaming attitudes only work to marginalize the victim and make it harder for her to come forward and report the abuse. If she knows that you or society blames her for the abuse, she will not feel safe coming forward and talking to you."
 
 
 


"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back in the same box."

~Italian Proverb


#48522 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Thu Jul 9, 2009 6:32 am
Subject: Re: Old Friend
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Hi Folks!
 
There are all kinds of "strange" so to clarify: I am mainly referring to this friend's attitude about my celibacy. He was obsessed with it; frequently telling me that he didn't understand how anyone could want to be celibate, and pressuring me to give it up. I guess he thought I'd date him then, however, he was just a friend to me. Sexual coercion is abusive. Just like calling women "whores."
 
Many years back during a conversation with my Uncle, he referred to a cousin of mine as a "whore." I was upset that he could be so foul. Likewise, I remember thinking, "How would you know if she's promiscuous? Do you grill her about her dates?" That's how certain family members of mine are, though. They just make things up and act like these are facts.
 
Terri 
 


"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back in the same box."

~Italian Proverb

 
In a message dated 6/30/2009 10:06:48 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:


Hi Folks!

I don't have much to do with the old friend below. Years back I heard he got into trouble for stalking women. His behavior was strange at times to me, however, I don't know if he stalks women.      

Terri
 

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!



 
In a message dated 6/30/2009 7:47:23 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:
Hi Folks!
 
I reconnected with an old friend because I wanted to know if the FBI and certain people have contacted him about this CSA/GNRP matter. I need to know who's behind all the blockage. However, he was playing dumb about our past so there's no way to tell for certain if he's feigning ignorance about other things too.
 
'Night
 
Terri
 

#48521 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Wed Jul 8, 2009 7:05 am
Subject: The Happening II
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Hi Folks!
 
If you want to hear something peculiar...
 
I've been shopping at some of the same stores for so long now, and in all the time I've shopped at these I don't recall any employee making a racial slur or racial joke in front of me. Yet, not long ago a cashier made two jokes out of the blue about Mexicans. At first I was taken aback. Then I started to chuckle. Not because I found her jokes amusing but because I thought, "Oh, this is so suspicious."
 
Because prior to this I asked a cab driver where a certain grocery store is located. I had some gift certificates I needed to use. He answered snippily, "I have no idea. I don't shop there. It's for Mexicans." I retorted, "Really? Then I guess I will be the only white person shopping there if it's only for Mexicans!" 
 
I tried to share this story with the cashier above but she cut me off for some reason.
 
And before this a neighbor approached me to inform me that they "can't stand Mexicans." I made it clear that I am a rainbow person. That nipped the conversation in the bud. Etc.  
 
Why, if I didn't know any better, I'd think the FBI was behind this. As bizarre as that might sound, it's actually a more plausible explanation to me than a bunch of people suddenly transforming into racists...  
 
Terri   


"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back in the same box."

~Italian Proverb



#48520 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Jul 7, 2009 11:23 pm
Subject: Respect for Authority Figures
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Hi Folks!
 
I was raised to have respect for authority figures. At the same time, my Grandmother would sometimes remind me, "...unless they knowingly hurt you. No one who hurts you is worthy of respect."
 
This doesn't mean if an authority figure hurt me I would behave disrespectfully. For instance, when some walls of my home were crumbling due to rot and Ms. Flores declared the repair wasn't needed, I certainly did not retort, "Up yours! You sound so bombed you wouldn't know your arse from your elbow!"
 
In fact, I didn't know how to speak up to hurtful authority figures back then. I tried to say things like: "I disagree" and "Your information is incorrect," however, ones like Ms. Flores would just dismiss me. She also acted mighty irritated that I didn't "yes" her: "Yes, whatever you say..." when her judgment was putting me at risk.
 
Admittedly, however, now I am absolutely disgusted with said authority figures. I do have an attitude toward those individuals and agencies who completely ignored my pleas for help with this CSA/GNRP ordeal over the past few years. It's going to take some kind authority figures to help me get over this.
 
Terri
 
"Once the game is over, the king and the pawn go back in the same box."

~Italian Proverb


#48519 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Jul 7, 2009 6:38 am
Subject: Re: Broken Column
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I absolutely love the colors Ms. Kahlo used in much of her artwork but, admittedly, many of her more well known pieces can be rather gloomy to view. I actually prefer her early family portraits. 
 
Terri
 
 
In a message dated 7/3/2009 3:14:29 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri writes:
For an idea of how my tooth feels today, see this painting by one of my all-time favorite artists.  
 
Terri

#48518 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Jul 7, 2009 6:22 am
Subject: Good Old USA
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Hi Folks!
 
Hope you all had a wonderful July 4th! Patriotic holidays remind me of my Uncle Kenny (he was a Marine in addition to being a member of the police department). Kenny was an admirable human being. Can't say I've ever possessed his courage, but my Grandmother (his Mother) would often say how Kenny and I had the same grin.
 
We were similar in some more pertinent ways too. Even before this CSA/GNRP ordeal there were family members I had very little to no contact with because of how they mistreat people (including their own children). Take my Aunt Kim, for instance. Kenny rarely had anything to do with her either. He'd tell people,
"She's always up to no good." He told me once or twice that he disliked the way she took advantage of Grandmother.
 
It can be lonely when you don't have any family to lean on. Yet, reflecting on Kenny always brings me comfort.
 
Terri

#48517 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Jul 3, 2009 6:15 pm
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For an idea of how my tooth feels today, see this painting by one of my all-time favorite artists.  
 
Terri
 
 
 

#48516 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Jul 3, 2009 4:15 pm
Subject: Re: GIMME THE GRANTS!
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Here's a novel idea:

Why not replace the miscreants with ethical, compassionate, non prejudiced human beings? The programs might even get more donations and grants in that case, and they could keep running...
 
Terri
 

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!



 
In a message dated 7/3/2009 1:02:25 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:


"some people" is probably the FBI/DOJ. I can guarantee you that my Uncle Kenneth Collings is turning in his grave over them doing nothing to protect his niece. They just let me suffer. They'll probably even let me die (i.e., if AC/Compressor goes) if they have their druthers. 
 
After all, what's more important in life?
 
The safety and well being of clients...
 
Or ensuring no one damages the reputation of these programs by telling the TRUTH about the miscreants behind them, so they can continue receiving those donations and grants to keep the programs running! 
 
Terri
 
 
In a message dated 7/3/2009 12:20:59 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:
Hi Folks!

I am filling out a complaint form re: my victim rights and I am going to submit the online version, too, to be sure they get it! I am also going to find out where I can complain about my human rights. I still can't believe that caseworker warning me to just move on from the crime committed against me because."...some people don't want anyone to have certain information." Who do "some people" think they are? No one should have to pretend they weren't injured! Not only that, but my tooth is in agony now and it's not safe for me to use a program. So what I am supposed to do? Go without treatment because of "some people"? What freaks.
 
Anyway, wish me luck
 
Terri 

#48515 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Jul 3, 2009 4:00 pm
Subject: GIMME THE GRANTS!
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"some people" is probably the FBI/DOJ. I can guarantee you that my Uncle Kenneth Collings is turning in his grave over them doing nothing to protect his niece. They just let me suffer. They'll probably even let me die (i.e., if AC/Compressor goes) if they have their druthers. 
 
After all, what's more important in life?
 
The safety and well being of clients...
 
Or ensuring no one damages the reputation of these programs by telling the TRUTH about the miscreants behind them, so they can continue receiving those donations and grants to keep the programs running! 
 
Terri
 

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!



 
In a message dated 7/3/2009 12:20:59 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:
Hi Folks!

I am filling out a complaint form re: my victim rights and I am going to submit the online version, too, to be sure they get it! I am also going to find out where I can complain about my human rights. I still can't believe that caseworker warning me to just move on from the crime committed against me because."...some people don't want anyone to have certain information." Who do "some people" think they are? No one should have to pretend they weren't injured! Not only that, but my tooth is in agony now and it's not safe for me to use a program. So what I am supposed to do? Go without treatment because of "some people"? What freaks.
 
Anyway, wish me luck
 
Terri

#48513 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Jul 3, 2009 3:15 pm
Subject: Complaining About My Rights
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Hi Folks!

I am filling out a complaint form re: my victim rights and I am going to submit the online version, too, to be sure they get it! I am also going to find out where I can complain about my human rights. I still can't believe that caseworker warning me to just move on from the crime committed against me because."...some people don't want anyone to have certain information." Who do "some people" think they are? No one should have to pretend they weren't injured! Not only that, but my tooth is in agony now and it's not safe for me to use a program. So what I am supposed to do? Go without treatment because of "some people"? What freaks.
 
Anyway, wish me luck
 
Terri
 

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!




#48512 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Jul 3, 2009 1:35 pm
Subject: Can psychopaths and delusionals pass lie detector tests?
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Can psychopaths and delusionals pass lie detector tests?
 
I've heard they can but have never researched the topic.
 
For example: can a woman who runs a program and spends the majority of funding on her own race pass a lie detector test when asked, "Do you distribute funds in an unbiased manner to all races?" because she's thinking, "Yes, it's only fair the crux of the money go to my race because we need it the most."
 
Can the President/CEO of a company pass a lie detector test when asked, "Did this client make any threats, and do you think she endangers your staff?" because he's thinking, "Yes, she said she was going to expose us as frauds and such exposure would destroy my reptutation and power."
 
I am not saying anyone would be asked these specific questions. I am just trying to grasp the mentality that would enable someone to pass a lie detector test.
 
Terri
 

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#48511 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Jul 3, 2009 12:29 am
Subject: FBY TEN MOST WANTED FUGITIVE
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FBY TEN MOST WANTED FUGITIVE
 

TERRI
Aliases: Angel
 
DESCRIPTION
Name: Terri
Date of Birth Used: February 1, Ahem
Hair: Dirty Blonde
Eyes: Blue
Height: 5'6"
Weight: Ahem
Complexion: Pale
Sex: Female
Race: White
Occupation: Humanitarian
 
Comments: Terri reported programs for breaking the law. Despite being injured and traumatized by these programs, Terri has maintained her sense of humor.
 
BEWARE
Terri might try to tell you about these programs breaking the law and show you her corresponding documents. You are not allowed to listen to her, read these, or get involved in any capacity.  
 
REWARD
The FBY is offering a reward of up to $1.00 for any information which can be altered to make Terri look like a kook. 
 
CONSIDERED DANGEROUS
Terri is determined that these programs be brought to justice in a court of law.  
 

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#48509 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Thu Jul 2, 2009 11:52 am
Subject: That's it Folks...
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Some more excerpts!
 
Subject: That's it Folks...
Date: 8/28/2007
From: 
Reply To: 
To: columbo288

 
Hello:
 
Hope all is well with all of you!... I've been under tremendous stress and pressure lately, and am just so tired from all this, that initially I didn't even notice the bottom portion of Carol's e-mail to me yesterday. As you can see, "any further e-mails related to this subject will go unanswered" until I've contacted every client I have in different states and countries and have them send me statements verifying the income receipts I cut/paste to CSA as opposed to printing up and mailing in.
 
Of course, I bet that even if I could accomplish such a feat CSA would then tell me, "Now we have to CALL or WRITE to all of these clients and verify their statements. This could take WEEKS to MONTHS." Then they'd tell me, "Now we are ALL OUT OF FUNDS." And on it would go. Otherwise, it's the same old same old, in that CSA has not answered any of my questions for years anyway. I.e., "Why can't Robert be in charge of my repairs?" So it's not like evading questions and ignoring me altogether would be anything novel irrespective of the "subject."
 
I have been confrontational with staff at CSA these past few months because over the years keeping my mouth shut has gotten me nowhere. And, it's hard to explain, but after being suppressed by them for so long it has felt good to speak up and say, "There's something seriously wrong with what you people are doing!" Nonetheless, as you can see, being direct with CSA doesn't work either.
 
This experience has been so horrendous that I am terrified of trying to use any program now. Because some of my teeth have broken off and are rotting, and I applied at AHCCCS months and months back for assistance...
 
Yet, at the time I applied I told Brian Swanton I needed some medical care from a program, and I do wonder. People like him, Yolanda, etc. usually have connections to other programs... I thought, "What if Brian or Yolanda told them I am a kook and to ignore me? Or told them if I contact them again to tell me I only "imagined" I put in an application, or I am "confused" or "telling tales" about it? I would absolutely DIE of humiliation." I got the impression from one technician years back and some things Robert shared with me privately that Yolanda told people at CSA I am a kook, so why not tell other programs this too?
 
Yolanda Flores is a cookie-cutter abuser who projects. She is the one who is confused, telling tales, scary, and so forth so that's what she's said to and about me (as far as I can assess in the latter case)... 
 
I just want to curl up into a ball and cry. I've tried, and tried, and tried to get repair and rental assistance all to no avail. I have court Thursday and really no there's no point in even going since I am going to be evicted no matter what...
 
Terri
 
 
In a message dated 8/27/2007 2:09:56 PM US Mountain Standard Time, Ckochlin@... writes:
Until this information is provided we CANNOT assist you with City of Glendale funding for repairs.  I feel the staff at CSA and the City have provided sufficient guidance for you to participate in the program.  Based on this, any further e-mails related to this subject will go unanswered until such time as the proper documentation is provided.   

#48508 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Thu Jul 2, 2009 5:05 am
Subject: Injuries
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Hi Folks!

Below are excerpts from some e-mails I sent family (I faxed the whole e-mails to AOAG as well). My family's primary solution to me being injured was to tell me to go on SSD if any injuries were preventing me from earning a living...
 
Terri
 
 
Subject: Inept or Illegal?
Date: 9/8/2007
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To: columbo288
 
Hello:
 
I really wish I had the money to sue CSA at this juncture. Initially, I just wanted some kind of PO against Yoldana Flores because the woman scares the bejesus out of me, and I know that either she or Brian (or someone at CSA) gave my phone number out to people to have them harass me. I was also (at that same time) getting a lot of Trojan links/viruses and forwarded all of them to spam@....

I honestly was afraid something was going to happen to me because they're a bunch of liars at CSA (save for Robert, as far as I know, but maybe he's turned out to be one as well if his job has been threatened because of all of this?), and they have been acting very creepy since I told them I fell through the porch and that I have not been able to get repairs done for years now, so I wanted witnesses in the event something did happen to me (hence, the reason I've been writing to you).

I have suspected for a while now that what CSA has been doing to me is illegal
 
 
Subject: Apology and Explanation
Date: 3/28/2008 5:54:35 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time
From: AZTerri
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To: Jgstephens
 

I fell through my front porch, was stuck there for almost ten minutes, and hurt my leg

 
 
 

 


#48507 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Wed Jul 1, 2009 6:01 pm
Subject: Re: What a Waste of Money
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Side Note: I sent a copy of the (whole) article below to my Uncle Tommy a while back too!

The Arizona Republic
May. 31, 2007 07:28 AM
 
"(Mr. and Mrs. So-And-So) have lost count of how many times their air conditioner and evaporative cooler have broken.
 
Then there are the repairs to the kitchen disposal, plumbing and water heater.
 
But, thanks to a program offered by the city, the couple has had the appliances fixed or replaced free of charge for the past decade."
 
Aren't they lucky!
 
By the way, why do these keep breaking? Did they get a lemon from EHRS like me?
 
Terri 
 

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!



 
In a message dated 7/1/2009 1:34:05 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:
Hi Folks!
 
I've lost so much because of this CSA/GNRP ordeal, and there's absolutely nothing I can do except vent here and watch my physical health go to hell over it. I still have an e-mail from Robert about the roof repair (which was promised to me by staff but never delivered) and it's dated 12/2/2003 - years ago! This gives you a rough idea of just how long their fraud has been going on.
 
It's astonishing the money these programs have which enable them to sweep their wrongdoing under the carpet year after year, yet, Ms. Flores never had the funds for certain repairs of mine. Likewise, she claimed to do repairs in the order of necessity, yet, while my roof was leaking and causing rot (I went right through my porch because of this) - Ms. Flores was replacing people's garbage disposals (according to the articles I read).
 
I'd call that abusing funds.
 
I bet they've spent a fortune over the years covering up for Ms. Flores and other staff any time a client had the courage to speak up. Destroying my life probably cost them a pretty penny too. It can't be real cheap to block the world from even listening to me, let alone read my documents. 
 
I just exist from day to day, praying for civil justice, with no end to the anguish in sight. I've been in a metaphorical prison all these years when I am the victim. Anyone who states contrary is a liar, and I hope they find themselves residing in a penal complex.  
 
Terri

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Date: Wed Jul 1, 2009 4:29 pm
Subject: What a Waste of Money
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Hi Folks!
 
I've lost so much because of this CSA/GNRP ordeal, and there's absolutely nothing I can do except vent here and watch my physical health go to hell over it. I still have an e-mail from Robert about the roof repair (which was promised to me by staff but never delivered) and it's dated 12/2/2003 - years ago! This gives you a rough idea of just how long their fraud has been going on.
 
It's astonishing the money these programs have which enable them to sweep their wrongdoing under the carpet year after year, yet, Ms. Flores never had the funds for certain repairs of mine. Likewise, she claimed to do repairs in the order of necessity, yet, while my roof was leaking and causing rot (I went right through my porch because of this) - Ms. Flores was replacing people's garbage disposals (according to the articles I read).
 
I'd call that abusing funds.
 
I bet they've spent a fortune over the years covering up for Ms. Flores and other staff any time a client had the courage to speak up. Destroying my life probably cost them a pretty penny too. It can't be real cheap to block the world from even listening to me, let alone read my documents. 
 
I just exist from day to day, praying for civil justice, with no end to the anguish in sight. I've been in a metaphorical prison all these years when I am the victim. Anyone who states contrary is a liar, and I hope they find themselves residing in a penal complex.  
 
Terri
 

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!




#48505 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Wed Jul 1, 2009 6:40 am
Subject: THE CRUCIBLE
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THE CRUCIBLE
 
Abigail Williams and some other young girls point their fingers at neighbors, accusing them of being in league with El Diablo. In the beginning, most townsfolk scurry away. Later, some of them participate in the madness; applauding as they watch their innocent neighbors hang to death (what a horrifically convenient way to filch).  
 
If you want an idea of what I've been going through for years now: imagine people running from you as if you've committed a crime, yet, in your case no one will tell you what the offense is supposed to be and no attorney is permitted to represent you.
 
Do you want to know when this method of “attack” is used? When the accuser’s evidence is nothing but fabrications and flimsy merde, and the accuser is terrified of their victim having an attorney because they know that any attorney would rip it to shreds. 
 
 

#48504 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Wed Jul 1, 2009 1:04 am
Subject: Re: Old Friend
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Hi Folks!

I don't have much to do with the old friend below. Years back I heard he got into trouble for stalking women. His behavior was strange at times to me, however, I don't know if he stalks women.      

Terri
 

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!



 
In a message dated 6/30/2009 7:47:23 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:
Hi Folks!
 
I reconnected with an old friend because I wanted to know if the FBI and certain people have contacted him about this CSA/GNRP matter. I need to know who's behind all the blockage. However, he was playing dumb about our past so there's no way to tell for certain if he's feigning ignorance about other things too.
 
'Night
 
Terri

#48503 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Jun 30, 2009 10:45 pm
Subject: Old Friend
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Hi Folks!
 
I reconnected with an old friend because I wanted to know if the FBI and certain people have contacted him about this CSA/GNRP matter. I need to know who's behind all the blockage. However, he was playing dumb about our past so there's no way to tell for certain if he's feigning ignorance about other things too.
 
'Night
 
Terri

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!


#48502 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Jun 30, 2009 10:37 pm
Subject: Broke...
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Hi Folks!
 
I've got some broken, rotting back teeth and can't afford to have them fixed. One in particular has been really hurting on and off for quite some time. Sigh.
 
Terri
 

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY!


#48501 From: AZTerri@...
Date: Mon Jun 29, 2009 10:12 pm
Subject: Added Grief
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Hi Folks!

As most of you know by now, this CSA/GNRP ordeal was preventing me from earning a living. Being hindered from working much caused me to get behind on bills/my credit was destroyed, and subsequently I was evicted from my home a few months back. When I got behind on bills my DSL service was disconnected for non payment. As most you also know by now, I work online. This is how I've supported myself in all the years I've resided here. So now, on top of everything else, with only dial-up at my disposal it takes FOREVER to get any work done. It takes forever for my account to load so I can see what orders I have; forever to get e-mails from clients; forever to send orders, ad nauseam. It takes so long to do things that normally would be a snap - sometimes it's so exhausting and the added grief just makes me break down and cry. Not to mention that taking so long isn't helping my business any. It doesn't always make for real happy clientele. This is all so disgusting...
 
Terri
 


"The world is a dangerous place, not because of those who do evil,
but because of those who look on and do nothing..."

~ Einstein


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