Toxic Love

By Robert Burney M. A.

Codependence: The Dance of Wounded Souls

"As long as we believe that someone else has the power to make us happy then
we are setting ourselves up to be victims."

One of the biggest problems with relationships in this society is that the
context we approach them from is too small. We were taught that getting the
relationship is the goal.

It starts in early childhood with Fairy Tales where the Prince and the
Princess live happily ever-after. It continues in movies and books where "boy
meets girl" "boy loses girl" "boy gets girl back" - the music swells and the
happy couple ride off into the sunset. The songs that say "I can't smile
without you" "I can't live without you" "You are my everything" describe the
type
of love we learned about growing up - toxic love - an addiction with the other
person as our drug of choice, as our Higher Power.

Any time we set another human being up to be our Higher Power we are going
to experience failure in whatever we are trying to accomplish. We will end up
feeling victimized by the other person or by our self - and even when we feel
victimized by the other person we blame our self for the choices we made.
We are set up to fail to get our needs met in Romantic Relationships because
of the belief system we were taught in childhood and the messages we got from
our society growing up.

There is no goal to reach that will bring us to happily ever-after. We are
not incomplete until we find our soul mate. We are not halves that cannot be
whole without a relationship.

True Love is not a painful obsession. It is not taking a hostage or being a
hostage. It is not all-consuming, isolating, or constricting. Believing we
can't be whole or happy without a relationship is unhealthy and leads us to
accept deprivation and abuse, and to engage in manipulation, dishonesty, and
power struggles. The type of love we learned about growing up is an addiction,
a
form of toxic love.

Here is a short list of the characteristics of Love vs. toxic love (compiled
with the help of the work of Melody Beattie & Terence Gorski).

1. Love - Development of self first priority.

Toxic love - Obsession with relationship.


2. Love - Room to grow, expand; desire for other to grow.

Toxic love - Security, comfort in sameness; intensity of need seen as proof
of love (may really be fear, insecurity, loneliness).


3. Love - Separate interests; other friends; maintain other meaningful
relationships.

Toxic love - Total involvement; limited social life; neglect old friends,
interests.


4. Love - Encouragement of each other's expanding; secure in own worth.

Toxic love - Preoccupation with other's behavior; fear of other changing.


5. Love - Appropriate Trust (i.e., trusting partner to behave according to
fundamental nature).

Toxic love - Jealousy; possessiveness; fear of competition; protects
"supply."


6. Love - Compromise, negotiation or taking turns at leading. Problem
solving together.

Toxic love - Power plays for control; blaming; passive or aggressive
manipulation.


7. Love - Embracing of each other's individuality.

Toxic love - Trying to change other to own image.


8. Love - Relationship deals with all aspects of reality.

Toxic love - Relationship is based on delusion and avoidance of the
unpleasant.


9. Love - Self-care by both partners; emotional state not dependent on
other's mood.

Toxic love - Expectation that one partner will fix and rescue the other.


10. Love - Loving detachment (healthy concern about partner, while letting
go).

Toxic love - Fusion (being obsessed with each other's problems and
feelings).


11. Love - Sex is free choice growing out of caring & friendship.

Toxic love - Pressure around sex due to insecurity, fear & need for
immediate gratification.


12. Love - Ability to enjoy being alone.

Toxic love - Unable to endure separation; clinging.


13. Love - Cycle of comfort and contentment.

Toxic love - Cycle of pain and despair.

Love is not supposed to be painful. There is pain involved in any
relationship but if it is painful most of the time then something is not
working.
There is nothing wrong with wanting a relationship - it is natural and
healthy. There is nothing wrong with wanting a relationship that will last
forever - expecting it to last forever is what is dysfunctional. Expectations
set
us up to be a victim - and cause to abandon ourselves in search of our goal.

If we can start seeing relationships not as the goal but as opportunities
for growth then we can start having more functional relationships. A
relationship that ends is not a failure or a punishment - it is a lesson.

As long as our definition of a successful relationship is one that lasts
forever - we are set up to fail. As long as we believe that we have to have the
other in our life to be happy, we are really just an addict trying to protect
our supply - using another person as our drug of choice. That is not True
Love - nor is it Loving.


“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves: who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?

You are a child of God.
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people wont feel insecure around you.

We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
Its not just in some of us, it is in everyone." - Marianne Williamson


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