QUIET As IT’s Kept newsletter from:

San Diego, CA. - April 9, 2006

YOUtopia INstitute [A non-profit consciousness evolution organization]

The following, between the horizontal lines, is dialogue between Medium Eva Ravenwood and myself/RDD, related to my presenting (below) the recent communications from Rasanna :

Eva: Are you sure you want that much of your personal life out in the public like that?   Would you like for me to ask Rasanna how she feels about it?

RDD: One of my life mandates is to 'Learn and Let learn.' So, as I learn I share with others so that they can have the opportunity to learn from what I've learned. As you know, I claim to have nothing to hide. That's either true, or I'm just another lying, or at least confused, hypocrite - saying one thing and doing another. Also, I claim, in my standard email signature, "ALL Faith, supported by Knowledge, PROTECTS." If that is not true, I want to be the first to learn that it isn't. And, I have already spent more than enough time in this life limiting my progress, in fear of one thing or another. I could go on and on about this, but I will suffice it here with; I AM now thankful beyond words that I no longer live in fear of what anyone might think, do or try to do with and/or about anything that I think, do, write, say - or have ever thought, done, written or said. And 'who-so-never' don't like it - that's their problem, not mine [And, for anyone who wants to take that a step further, and try to punish me, or worst, YOU had better be willing to take what YOU intend to project my way - 'cause I ain't no willing martyr, or pacifist]. I AM confident that Rasanna agrees about what I've expressed above, seeing as I learned most of it from and with her. I certainly would like to have her confirm, or not, that I'm correct about this.

I'll let Rasanna tell YOU All about it, at 4 years old, in her own voice "THAT'S WHY I CAME HERE" Tanisha (Porter - mother's last name not on her birth certificate) Rasanna Dyushambee:  mp3  Dial Up modem   Cable/DSL modem. And next in her own words, from a few days ago: The following are excerpts from March 17, 2006 communications from Rasanna - through the genuinely authentic Medium, Eva Ravenwood.

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• I am very well and happy to have a person who can speak with my father directly for me.  He has asked many questions over the years that he needs answers for and he needs them so that he can move forward in his heart. 

• He has not stopped mourning me since I left, and I want him to disconnect so that he can move on.

• Yes I did.  He is holding onto me still very tightly and he wants so to have another kind of life, but it is not possible for him to do so as long as I am there with him as much as he wills me to be.  He won’t be able to move forward and I don’t want that for him. 

• He hurts my heart when he does this.  I want him to let go, just a little, so that he has room for different relationships and different kinds of growth.  But he must know that I always will love him, always, and know that he always will love me.  He needs that assurance so he won’t hold on so strongly.  Tell him this. 

• He is curious as to whether or not I knew that I would make this transition before it happened.  I was aware that there would be some change about a week before I left there.  I was clear that a major breakthrough was about to occur, but I didn’t know it would be this one, and in this way.  I thought it was more related to spiritual occurrences there and in the relationships I had while on earth.  I thought I was about to develop some new skills and see some new people, but no, I did not understand it to be a time of transition for me. 

• I was a young incarnation and though that has helped me while there, to stay alert and ready for all around me, it did not make me wise in some areas.  My life with him was my 49^th incarnation, all on that planet.  I am scheduled to go to another the next time around, but no, I had not before, though I felt I had.  I think I was foreshadowing this life to come. 

• Not for his lifetime I think, though this is flexible.  It will happen in about two of your lifetimes in your plane.  I should see him when he arrives. 

• No, it was my second.  There was a first when I was a child, but prayer staved that off.  The time I left, I was ready.  I had come to learn only a few things while there, and love and expansion of my goals was a major part of my lesson plan.

• Having Rama as my father did that to a great degree, so he should know that he has done well with me in helping prepare me for new lessons.  He has helped me to learn how to learn, and that was a great lesson for me. 

• I am headed for new things and new ways to think and it was necessary that I had a parent who could absorb himself in my care so heavily that I was able to know what that meant, the level of love he could bestow.  That is a rare quality and he was chosen for the possibility of that capacity.  He has proven himself very well, and he did exactly what he should have done for me to allow my expansion to the next phase. 

• I completed all tasks that I needed to, to move forward, and no spirit could ask for more from a parent sprit than that.  I am now and have always been grateful to him for his loose and fine fitting love and he should know that, but he should also know that I am because of him, as well as I could possibility be in my journey and that he has well prepared me for the next phase of this trip. 

• If he continues to hold on so tightly to my love, to the point that he does not love himself enough, he may miss some of the last and very few lessons he has coming his way while there, and not complete his tasks.  I have done all of mine, but I want him to do all of his in this incarnation. 

• I want him to leave my thoughts and my love in his heart, but not let them take up so much room.  There is so much more room in his heart for so much more love.

• I am grateful that you ... have come into his life because you provide many answers to so many questions he has had.  Not only that, but I can feel a little room in that big heart opening up to allow someone else in and he hasn’t done that in a long time, not really.  He has tried, but it has been difficult because in a small way, he feels he will betray me in some manner. 

• I want to release him of that feeling as it can never happen.  He can never betray me in any manner and he only makes me more happy when he finds some happiness in the world, especially in other people.  He is closed off from his emotional self too much.  I want him to open it up, not just his mind, but his soul to another person so that he can receive the love he deserves.

• I love him now as I did while I was there, and only want the best for  him.  He more than deserves an open heart who works for him and his well being ...  He deserves many more such experiences.  I want him to have them. 

• I have been in contact with some of our friends and relatives, and I want to say to him that he was right about a couple of them.  They are almost as difficult in this life as in that one.  I had doubted that to be possible, but he was right (she laughs).  Being on this side does not eliminate all traits, it only subdues them while the training schedule and plan is being developed for our return to school. 

• I want him to take the time to go to the places he went before I came into his life, that gave him joy.  Revisiting the places that we went together will only bring him more sadness and I want him to let all sadness go. 

• This was a journey for which I was prepared.  It did not catch me off guard, as I had no unfinished business there.  My lessons were simple.  He must not wonder about this any longer but must release all doubt that there was anything I left undone and feel regret for.  I feel no regret. 

• Today, in this way that he operates, will keep him stagnant in his heart because he wants not to feel this kind of pain again.  I want him to let that go as well, because he cannot avoid pain.  It is part of life.  He knows that intellectually, and he understands it, but he may well keep ... anyone from being too close in order not to feel the loss if it does not work out, or worse, if he has to experience death again.  I want him to release that. 

• All that will do is make his essence live in fear and trepidation about the giving of his complete heart and he is too far beyond that kind of thinking and emotional and spiritual limitations.  He knows this in his mind.  I want him to know this in his heart and spirit.  His soul cries to release this, and I pray for him to do so and be courageous and not stop himself when the thought of pain creeps in. 

• I want him to be as fearless emotionally as he is in all other facets of his life and to make me ever proud of his courage.  He is a courageous man whom I was very proud to call my father.  I want him to let his heart be as courageous. 

• Yes, that he is well loved and he has always been. 

• That his moments of resentment for losing me do not fare his spiritual growth well and they are beneath him.  He knows better, and yet he is in so much of a feeling of loss that he does allow this to seep in occasionally.  He must not. 

• I will see him soon enough and we will always be able to communicate, even if not through you ...  I hear every word he says to me and I do try and communicate with him, but often he allows his heart to get in that communication and he feels too much loss. 

• That is not me encouraging that feeling and he must not associate that with me.  He must change it to a pure feeling of joy, because that is all I feel in this state.  Joy for him, joy for me, joy for my mother and joy for everyone who loved me and everyone who hated me.  I only feel joy and when he is talking to me, that is all I try and send back so that he can share that joy. 

• It is all of the experiences, ALL that I had there that were designed for me to become who I am, and I weathered them well because of his love.  It was meant to be and he did very well, and therefore helped me do very well and develop quickly and in the manner I was supposed to while there.  He needs to know that and that I was able to come home quickly because he did so well. 

• This is not a sad occasion, but a joyous one for which he should feel proud that he aided me in executing so quickly.  That is the only way to see this, and he should release all other thoughts that are contrary. 

• I want him to feel no pain, no anger, no kind of upset about anything.  He has done very well by me, and that is what I know and wanted and needed in accordance with my lessons while there.  He has released my soul to be able to move to my next level, and now I want to release his. 

• He must accomplish more and worrying about me will delay his own progress.  He should not move in that direction, but only in the direction of completion and growth.  That starts by knowing I am fully well, and that he helped me be so.  He left nothing undone in our relationship and I could not have asked for more.

• No, not for now.  I appreciate your coming into our lives and allowing us to communicate with one another through you.   I ask that I may do so again with your permission.

Eva - RAMA’S QUESTIONS:  I’D LIKE TO ASK THEM PLEASE, JUST AS HE ASKED THEM, TO BE SURE I AM ON TARGET FOR HIM, THOUGH I KNOW THAT YOU HAVE ANSWERED THIS FIRST ONE.

Did she have some idea that she was going to make the transition  around the time that she did? 

No, not fully, but I knew that a change was coming, but still for only a short time before, and there was no anxiousness about it and no feeling of discomfort 

for what was coming.

And, what was her dream involving the moon?  

That is funny that you should mention it.  I am not completely sure, but I am beginning to think that it has something to do with my future home, and the moon, or 

moons on that planet.  All has not been revealed to me about my next incarnation, only that it will not be back on earth.   More may be revealed later.

Mainly I want to know everything that she wants to say. I have no doubt that your heart and mind are with me on this.  And I am equally certain that the same is true for Rasanna.

My heart is always with him and I check on him daily.   There is much to do here, but I never forget him.  I check on him and every time he thinks of me, I make sure 

I listen so I am in contact with him at those times as well, and he knows how many there are.  It is in part why I want him to release me just a little, not forget me as I 

will never forget him either, but release me enough for thoughts of something and someone else who can heal his heart to come in and be able to reach his heart.  

Right now they cannot, as he has little room that is not filled with thoughts and feelings of me.  I will not go anywhere and he will never lose me.  He can make room.  

He has a huge heart.

Eva: IS THERE ANYTHING ELSE? 

Not for now.  He knows as I know how much love there is between us.

 Jeepers peepers.

Eva: I’M SORRY.  DID YOU SAY JEEPERS PEEPERS?

Yes.   Thank you. 

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