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You know, I always thought it was unfair that I'd have to even consider going on SSD because some programs broke the law, and following that I was blocked from suing. I have decided, to hell

with anyone who suggests I go on disability. They want me to appear incompetent or incapacitated because they broke the law too.

Terri

#7350

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Mon Aug 31, 2009 6:58 pm
Subject: That's It?

arizona_terri

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Hi Folks!

I mentioned in another post that the homeless shelter I stayed at dropped us off at a center each day (excluding Sundays. Sundays we were locked in the shelter). Some of the women referred to the center as LDRC. A man who worked inside that building told me I need to just forget about this, let it go, move on, et al. I told him (and law enforcement) that I went to the state Attorney General, and I received a letter stating they are prohibited by law from doing anything for me as an individual consumer. The man at LDRC said that (complaining to AG) was the most I could do (aside from getting an attorney to sue). I can't let it go. Since I am being blocked from suing, it's impossible to believe that that is the most one can do.

Terri

In a message dated 8/31/2009 9:49:02 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Likewise, here's an example of a paranoid delusion: if I come from a family that is loving and supportive of me but I think they're trying to cause me harm nonetheless. Here's an example of fear: if I come from a family that is cold and psychologically abusive (and they're skilled at covering this up!), and I know they are causing harm to me.

Terri

In a message dated 8/31/2009 9:17:39 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Such a reply is not a symptom of incapacitation. I am merely leery of the culprit twisting around anything I say. After all, I've got proof that CSA/GNRP twisted around the things I wrote.

Terri

In a message dated 8/31/2009 8:29:40 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

What the culprit has done to me = apprehension. When certain persons ask how I am, I'll reply, "I can't say."

Terri

In a message dated 8/31/2009 6:55:18 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Speaking of which, I can usually only get enough groceries for a few days at a time (on occasion, for one day only). This means I need to shop more frequently than the average person, and I also have to spend a fortune on transportation. But because of what the culprit has been having cab drivers/stores do to me, sometimes I just go without when it's too overwhelming and hurtful. I can't always keep my chin up. By the time the culprit is done with their petty torments, I am going to be too scared to shop at all. And my former cab company lost me as a (long time!) customer. The destruction the culprit causes never ceases.

Terri

In a message dated 8/30/2009 11:01:35 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

The store where the $70 incident occurred is Walgreens (it's right down the street from me, and there's a 7 & 11 on the opposite corner). Some of the cashiers started asking me for personal information and making racial comments. And, as written below, one made the comment about me having the money to buy whatever I need when I don't spend much money there at all. I don't have any to spend.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 9:09:39 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Yet one more:

I spent $70 at the store one time and the cashier said to me, "Your business must be doing good! I mean, you can buy whatever you need..." My jaw about dropped. I couldn't even reply. I hardly think $70 qualifies buying whatever one needs, and if I could buy whatever I need I wouldn't be shopping at thrift stores to begin with. Somebody must be playing a prank on me, and I am just missing the punch line.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 8:31:53 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Here's another bizarre incident along the same vein:

Someone in the park where I live tried to sell me a vehicle, and they acted like I had the means to buy it. I live in a dump, I've got no clothes, I have to take cabs everywhere I go, I don't even have the money to spend on makeup (I could go on...). I couldn't help but think, "What have you been smoking? You have to be on something," because they knew better. They were behaving insane.

Later I thought to myself, "Why are some people acting so weird? If I was ever 'allowed' to sue these programs and won, I certainly wouldn't be living in the aforementioned conditions anymore! It's just common sense."

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7349

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Mon Aug 31, 2009 12:46 pm
Subject: Re: I Should Never Go Out Again

arizona_terri

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Likewise, here's an example of a paranoid delusion: if I come from a family that is loving and supportive of me but I think they're trying to cause me harm nonetheless. Here's an example of fear: if I come from a family that is cold and psychologically abusive (and they're skilled at covering this up!), and I know they are causing harm to me.

Terri

In a message dated 8/31/2009 9:17:39 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Such a reply is not a symptom of incapacitation. I am merely leery of the culprit twisting around anything I say. After all, I've got proof that CSA/GNRP twisted around the things I wrote.

Terri

In a message dated 8/31/2009 8:29:40 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

What the culprit has done to me = apprehension. When certain persons ask how I am, I'll reply, "I can't say."

Terri

In a message dated 8/31/2009 6:55:18 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Speaking of which, I can usually only get enough groceries for a few days at a time (on occasion, for one day only). This means I need to shop more frequently than the average person, and I also have to spend a fortune on transportation. But because of what the culprit has been having cab drivers/stores do to me, sometimes I just go without when it's too overwhelming and hurtful. I can't always keep my chin up. By the time the culprit is done with their petty torments, I am going to be too scared to shop at all. And my former cab company lost me as a (long time!) customer. The destruction the culprit causes never ceases.

Terri

In a message dated 8/30/2009 11:01:35 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

The store where the $70 incident occurred is Walgreens (it's right down the street from me, and there's a 7 & 11 on the opposite corner). Some of the cashiers started asking me for personal information and making racial comments. And, as written below, one made the comment about me having the money to buy whatever I need when I don't spend much money there at all. I don't have any to spend.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 9:09:39 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Yet one more:

I spent $70 at the store one time and the cashier said to me, "Your business must be doing good! I mean, you can buy whatever you need..." My jaw about dropped. I couldn't even reply. I hardly think $70 qualifies buying whatever one needs, and if I could buy whatever I need I wouldn't be shopping at thrift stores to begin with. Somebody must be playing a prank on me, and I am just missing the punch line.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 8:31:53 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Here's another bizarre incident along the same vein:

Someone in the park where I live tried to sell me a vehicle, and they acted like I had the means to buy it. I live in a dump, I've got no clothes, I have to take cabs everywhere I go, I don't even have the money to spend on makeup (I could go on...). I couldn't help but think, "What have you been smoking? You have to be on something," because they knew better. They were behaving insane.

Later I thought to myself, "Why are some people acting so weird? If I was ever 'allowed' to sue these programs and won, I certainly wouldn't be living in the aforementioned conditions anymore! It's just common sense."

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7348

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Mon Aug 31, 2009 12:16 pm
Subject: Re: I Should Never Go Out Again

arizona_terri

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Such a reply is not a symptom of incapacitation. I am merely leery of the culprit twisting around anything I say. After all, I've got proof that CSA/GNRP twisted around the things I wrote.

Terri

In a message dated 8/31/2009 8:29:40 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

What the culprit has done to me = apprehension. When certain persons ask how I am, I'll reply, "I can't say."

Terri

In a message dated 8/31/2009 6:55:18 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Speaking of which, I can usually only get enough groceries for a few days at a time (on occasion, for one day only). This means I need to shop more frequently than the average person, and I also have to spend a fortune on transportation. But because of what the culprit has been having cab drivers/stores do to me, sometimes I just go without when it's too overwhelming and hurtful. I can't always keep my chin up. By the time the culprit is done with their petty torments, I am going to be too scared to shop at all. And my former cab company lost me as a (long time!) customer. The destruction the culprit causes never ceases.

Terri

In a message dated 8/30/2009 11:01:35 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

The store where the $70 incident occurred is Walgreens (it's right down the street from me, and there's a 7 & 11 on the opposite corner). Some of the cashiers started asking me for personal information and making racial comments. And, as written below, one made the comment about me having the money to buy whatever I need when I don't spend much money there at all. I don't have any to spend.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 9:09:39 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Yet one more:

I spent $70 at the store one time and the cashier said to me, "Your business must be doing good! I mean, you can buy whatever you need..." My jaw about dropped. I couldn't even reply. I hardly think $70 qualifies buying whatever one needs, and if I could buy whatever I need I wouldn't be shopping at thrift stores to begin with. Somebody must be playing a prank on me, and I am just missing the punch line.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 8:31:53 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Here's another bizarre incident along the same vein:

Someone in the park where I live tried to sell me a vehicle, and they acted like I had the means to buy it. I live in a dump, I've got no clothes, I have to take cabs everywhere I go, I don't even have the money to spend on makeup (I could go on...). I couldn't help but think, "What have you been smoking? You have to be on something," because they knew better. They were behaving insane.

Later I thought to myself, "Why are some people acting so weird? If I was ever 'allowed' to sue these programs and won, I certainly wouldn't be living in the aforementioned conditions anymore! It's just common sense."

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7347

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Mon Aug 31, 2009 11:29 am
Subject: Re: I Should Never Go Out Again

arizona_terri

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What the culprit has done to me = apprehension. When certain persons ask how I am, I'll reply, "I can't say."

Terri

In a message dated 8/31/2009 6:55:18 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Speaking of which, I can usually only get enough groceries for a few days at a time (on occasion, for one day only). This means I need to shop more frequently than the average person, and I also have to spend a fortune on transportation. But because of what the culprit has been having cab drivers/stores do to me, sometimes I just go without when it's too overwhelming and hurtful. I can't always keep my chin up. By the time the culprit is done with their petty torments, I am going to be too scared to shop at all. And my former cab company lost me as a (long time!) customer. The destruction the culprit causes never ceases.

Terri

In a message dated 8/30/2009 11:01:35 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

The store where the $70 incident occurred is Walgreens (it's right down the street from me, and there's a 7 & 11 on the opposite corner). Some of the cashiers started asking me for personal information and making racial comments. And, as written below, one made the comment about me having the money to buy whatever I need when I don't spend much money there at all. I don't have any to spend.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 9:09:39 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Yet one more:

I spent $70 at the store one time and the cashier said to me, "Your business must be doing good! I mean, you can buy whatever you need..." My jaw about dropped. I couldn't even reply. I hardly think $70 qualifies buying whatever one needs, and if I could buy whatever I need I wouldn't be shopping at thrift stores to begin with. Somebody must be playing a prank on me, and I am just missing the punch line.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 8:31:53 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Here's another bizarre incident along the same vein:

Someone in the park where I live tried to sell me a vehicle, and they acted like I had the means to buy it. I live in a dump, I've got no clothes, I have to take cabs everywhere I go, I don't even have the money to spend on makeup (I could go on...). I couldn't help but think, "What have you been smoking? You have to be on something," because they knew better. They were behaving insane.

Later I thought to myself, "Why are some people acting so weird? If I was ever 'allowed' to sue these programs and won, I certainly wouldn't be living in the aforementioned conditions anymore! It's just common sense."

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7346

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Mon Aug 31, 2009 9:54 am
Subject: I Should Never Go Out Again

arizona_terri

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Speaking of which, I can usually only get enough groceries for a few days at a time (on occasion, for one day only). This means I need to shop more frequently than the average person, and I also have to spend a fortune on transportation. But because of what the culprit has been having cab drivers/stores do to me, sometimes I just go without when it's too overwhelming and hurtful. I can't always keep my chin up. By the time the culprit is done with their petty torments, I am going to be too scared to shop at all. And my former cab company lost me as a (long time!) customer. The destruction the culprit causes never ceases.

Terri

In a message dated 8/30/2009 11:01:35 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

The store where the $70 incident occurred is Walgreens (it's right down the street from me, and there's a 7 & 11 on the opposite corner). Some of the cashiers started asking me for personal information and making racial comments. And, as written below, one made the comment about me having the money to buy whatever I need when I don't spend much money there at all. I don't have any to spend.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 9:09:39 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Yet one more:

I spent $70 at the store one time and the cashier said to me, "Your business must be doing good! I mean, you can buy whatever you need..." My jaw about dropped. I couldn't even reply. I hardly think $70 qualifies buying whatever one needs, and if I could buy whatever I need I wouldn't be shopping at thrift stores to begin with. Somebody must be playing a prank on me, and I am just missing the punch line.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 8:31:53 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Here's another bizarre incident along the same vein:

Someone in the park where I live tried to sell me a vehicle, and they acted like I had the means to buy it. I live in a dump, I've got no clothes, I have to take cabs everywhere I go, I don't even have the money to spend on makeup (I could go on...). I couldn't help but think, "What have you been smoking? You have to be on something," because they knew better. They were behaving insane.

Later I thought to myself, "Why are some people acting so weird? If I was ever 'allowed' to sue these programs and won, I certainly wouldn't be living in the aforementioned conditions anymore! It's just common sense."

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7345

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sun Aug 30, 2009 2:00 pm
Subject: Re: Dirt Poor

arizona_terri

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Hi Folks!

The store where the $70 incident occurred is Walgreens (it's right down the street from me, and there's a 7 & 11 on the opposite corner). Some of the cashiers started asking me for personal information and making racial comments. And, as written below, one made the comment about me having the money to buy whatever I need when I don't spend much money there at all. I don't have any to spend.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 9:09:39 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Yet one more:

I spent $70 at the store one time and the cashier said to me, "Your business must be doing good! I mean, you can buy whatever you need..." My jaw about dropped. I couldn't even reply. I hardly think $70 qualifies buying whatever one needs, and if I could buy whatever I need I wouldn't be shopping at thrift stores to begin with. Somebody must be playing a prank on me, and I am just missing the punch line.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 8:31:53 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Here's another bizarre incident along the same vein:

Someone in the park where I live tried to sell me a vehicle, and they acted like I had the means to buy it. I live in a dump, I've got no clothes, I have to take cabs everywhere I go, I don't even have the money to spend on makeup (I could go on...). I couldn't help but think, "What have you been smoking? You have to be on something," because they knew better. They were behaving insane.

Later I thought to myself, "Why are some people acting so weird? If I was ever 'allowed' to sue these programs and won, I certainly wouldn't be living in the aforementioned conditions anymore! It's just common sense."

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7344

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sat Aug 29, 2009 9:36 pm
Subject: My Harassment

arizona_terri

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My Harassment

You watch, because of more recent posts now even more cab drivers will call people names in front of me, more clients will ask inane questions, etc.

If I could have videotaped the cab drivers and you watched these, I guarantee you'd be able to detect the pattern, "Oh, somebody's putting them up to that!" Like the most current one: after using a disgusting word he actually paused, turned, and stared at me - obviously just waiting for my reaction. I pretended like he didn't exist (I learned to do this from all the agencies I've contacted who've done the same to me).

If I weren't able to use cabs at all, my back would be severely damaged and I'd pass out from the heat.

If I could post a number of clients' e-mails to the groups, I guarantee you'd be able to detect the pattern, "Yep, the question this client asks is almost identical to the question that client asked, and the question that client asked is almost identical to the question yet another client asked, and the question itself is just a waste of time to answer."

Needlessly consuming my time makes me tired and interferes with getting orders done.

And so on.

The culprit behind this is not smarter or better than anyone else, people just believe the culprit is powerful. Stating, "I work for the police department," and "I work for the FBI," can make many persons then assume that whatever the culprit has to say is factual and, thereby, quake in their boots.

Yet, if you watch interviews with Manson you quickly catch on that he's nothing at all. He's nobody. He merely suffers from grandiose illusions. The only power he ever possessed was in the minds of those who fell for his BS, and those who were too afraid to take a stand against him. The same premise applies to the culprit.

I've had to tolerate CSA's FRAUD and DAMAGE, all by myself, for around six years now because my family wanted nothing to do with it, agencies would do nothing about it, and most everyone else has acted too afraid they'll get into trouble if they become involved.

During this entire span of time I have:

1) Not made any threats (just notified them that I was going to report/sue them)

2) Not reacted violently or done anything remotely dangerous

3) Not lost my memory or mind

And I never will.

Someone told me that the longer the culprit does these things, the greater the likelihood of them going to prison.

In a situation like this, all a sane, non violent victim can do is ignore any harassers and pray they survive all the distress until an attorney decides to take their case.

Terri

"Laws are like cobwebs, which may catch small flies, but let wasps and hornets break through."

~ Jonathan Swift

In a message dated 8/29/2009 8:26:33 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

The Do-Gooder

I've been reading a story about an FBI agent who is a covert abuser and sadist. Those of you involved with abusers know how they really are behind close doors, so you may be able to relate to some of it. This agent has a hidden disdain for crime victims. Underneath it all, he thinks "they deserve what they get." I haven't gotten to the why, however, it's hinted that his Mother was victimized and he loathed what he perceived to be her "weakness."

He's angry inside, but most folks who know this agent think he's a do-gooder because he advertises himself as someone who just wants to "make the world a better place." His pathology is such that, to a degree, he's even convinced of this himself (Manson thought he was doing the world a good deed too).

Others notice this agent's "smirk," yet, chalk it up to "arrogance." His victims, on the other hand, would easily know that it's really an expression of cruelty. He invades their lives behind their backs, more often than not, and attempts to drive them to breakdowns in order to discredit them - as a "favor" to any criminals who work for the justice system. He secretly admires said miscreants' "cojones" and wants to see them "win."

This agent savors tormenting crime victims, though he's adept at covering it up. If ever caught, he'd vehemently deny being "sick like that." Nonetheless, sometimes he finds that reflecting on the destruction he's inflicted on their lives brings him to "ecstasy" when he "touches himself."

He gets away with all of this because of his "title," "connections," and skilled "phoniness."

Manson was smart and good at snowing people as well. He probably never would have ended up in prison if he'd worn a suit and been able to hide behind the skirts of the Federal Bureau of Investigation...

Terri

"How delicious are these implements of torture, of the crime that we love."

~ Marquis de Sade

#7343

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sat Aug 29, 2009 11:25 am
Subject: The Do-Gooder

arizona_terri

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The Do-Gooder

I've been reading a story about an FBI agent who is a covert abuser and sadist. Those of you involved with abusers know how they really are behind close doors, so you may be able to relate to some of it. This agent has a hidden disdain for crime victims. Underneath it all, he thinks "they deserve what they get." I haven't gotten to the why, however, it's hinted that his Mother was victimized and he loathed what he perceived to be her "weakness."

He's angry inside, but most folks who know this agent think he's a do-gooder because he advertises himself as someone who just wants to "make the world a better place." His pathology is such that, to a degree, he's even convinced of this himself (Manson thought he was doing the world a good deed too).

Others notice this agent's "smirk," yet, chalk it up to "arrogance." His victims, on the other hand, would easily know that it's really an expression of cruelty. He invades their lives behind their backs, more often than not, and attempts to drive them to breakdowns in order to discredit them - as a "favor" to any criminals who work for the justice system. He secretly admires said miscreants' "cojones" and wants to see them "win."

This agent savors tormenting crime victims, though he's adept at covering it up. If ever caught, he'd vehemently deny being "sick like that." Nonetheless, sometimes he finds that reflecting on the destruction he's inflicted on their lives brings him to "ecstasy" when he "touches himself."

He gets away with all of this because of his "title," "connections," and skilled "phoniness."

Manson was smart and good at snowing people as well. He probably never would have ended up in prison if he'd worn a suit and been able to hide behind the skirts of the Federal Bureau of Investigation...

Terri

"How delicious are these implements of torture, of the crime that we love."

~ Marquis de Sade

#7342

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sat Aug 29, 2009 2:26 am
Subject: Re: Gotta Love Those Clients!

arizona_terri

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And whoever doesn't like this post - mind your temper, now

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 11:19:34 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

This is hilarious. I've been getting a number of new "clients" who all ask similar to identical questions, and make similar to identical comments. It's reached the point where I can almost just paste the same reply to all of them. Someone needs to be more innovative

Terri

#7341

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sat Aug 29, 2009 2:18 am
Subject: Gotta Love Those Clients!

arizona_terri

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This is hilarious. I've been getting a number of new "clients" who all ask similar to identical questions, and make similar to identical comments. It's reached the point where I can almost just paste the same reply to all of them. Someone needs to be more innovative

Terri

#7340

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Aug 28, 2009 10:30 pm
Subject: Re: Moi has sent you an ecard from AmericanGreetings.com

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Some of the drivers gave me their cards in the past, lol.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 7:07:24 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Moi (azterri@...) has sent you an ecard.

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#7338

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Aug 28, 2009 12:07 pm
Subject: Re: Dirt Poor

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Yet one more:

I spent $70 at the store one time and the cashier said to me, "Your business must be doing good! I mean, you can buy whatever you need..." My jaw about dropped. I couldn't even reply. I hardly think $70 qualifies buying whatever one needs, and if I could buy whatever I need I wouldn't be shopping at thrift stores to begin with. Somebody must be playing a prank on me, and I am just missing the punch line.

Terri

In a message dated 8/28/2009 8:31:53 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Here's another bizarre incident along the same vein:

Someone in the park where I live tried to sell me a vehicle, and they acted like I had the means to buy it. I live in a dump, I've got no clothes, I have to take cabs everywhere I go, I don't even have the money to spend on makeup (I could go on...). I couldn't help but think, "What have you been smoking? You have to be on something," because they knew better. They were behaving insane.

Later I thought to myself, "Why are some people acting so weird? If I was ever 'allowed' to sue these programs and won, I certainly wouldn't be living in the aforementioned conditions anymore! It's just common sense."

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7337

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Aug 28, 2009 11:30 am
Subject: Dirt Poor

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Here's another bizarre incident along the same vein:

Someone in the park where I live tried to sell me a vehicle, and they acted like I had the means to buy it. I live in a dump, I've got no clothes, I have to take cabs everywhere I go, I don't even have the money to spend on makeup (I could go on...). I couldn't help but think, "What have you been smoking? You have to be on something," because they knew better. They were behaving insane.

Later I thought to myself, "Why are some people acting so weird? If I was ever 'allowed' to sue these programs and won, I certainly wouldn't be living in the aforementioned conditions anymore! It's just common sense."

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7336

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Thu Aug 27, 2009 5:56 pm
Subject: What's It To You?

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In addition to their racial commentary, some of the cab drivers from the former company I used were so curious about my financial status. I.e., asking if my home-based business earns money...

I lead a regimented life. If anything deviates from routine it is noticeable to me, and I will seek the cause. Over the years, it has been rare that any cab driver has given a hoot about this subject. I didn't want to go into detail with them so the gist of my replies was, "Any time my business would get slow in the past I'd work a second job, but I've been going through a crisis which prevents me from working much."

When I told family that I couldn't work much because CSA/GNRP was "tormenting" me and caused me "injury," my Aunt Kris offered no sympathy whatsoever. Instead, she actually gave me a lecture on SSD; alleging that it was "a shame" I forfeited it because it's "impossible to get" on once a person "chooses" to go off of it. I told her I was no longer qualified at the time due to the amount of money I had been earning. She acted disgusted, when it made absolutely no sense for her to even broach the topic. Others suggested I apply for SSD.

I researched it and was informed, in so many words, that SSD is not for those who are only able to work one job and not two so that they end up in a homeless shelter. Though working even one job has been a challenge for quite some time, this is not because I have a disability. It's because law enforcement has been everlastingly remiss.

Anyhow, even though I switched cab companies, more recently a driver asked several times if I gamble. No, I don't. We'll see if that was a fluke, or if yet more drivers are longing to know if I play games of chance

Terri

#7335

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Thu Aug 27, 2009 1:43 am
Subject: Re: There's No Place Like Home...

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I realize this is going to disappoint certain persons but, nope, I don't drink, I don't have memory loss, I don't have a disorder, I don't have hallucinations, ad nauseam. I am simply a hurting human being because almost everyone I've gone to has betrayed me.

Terri

In a message dated 8/26/2009 2:55:48 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Not that I would need a reminder since my memory is excellent. It was just a shock being around people like that again.

Terri

In a message dated 8/26/2009 11:57:19 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

If I had stayed at the homeless shelter any longer I would have had another breakdown. It was a jolting reminder why I ceased contact with family years ago. Even if I did want to have a relationship with any of them, they've been avoiding me altogether since they told me I'd never find an attorney to sue certain programs.

A number of the women at the shelter were explosive, disturbed (i.e., in and out of touch with reality), and/or alcoholics. It was like being trapped in a madhouse at times. I kept thinking, "This is a nightmare. In my home, I wouldn't be afraid of anyone making threats or attacking me. It is safe from any kind of abuse, and people who get high are not allowed to enter. There isn't even anywhere to hide in the shelter if a riot breaks out."

Terri

#7334

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Wed Aug 26, 2009 5:54 pm
Subject: Re: There's No Place Like Home...

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Not that I would need a reminder since my memory is excellent. It was just a shock being around people like that again.

Terri

In a message dated 8/26/2009 11:57:19 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

If I had stayed at the homeless shelter any longer I would have had another breakdown. It was a jolting reminder why I ceased contact with family years ago. Even if I did want to have a relationship with any of them, they've been avoiding me altogether since they told me I'd never find an attorney to sue certain programs.

A number of the women at the shelter were explosive, disturbed (i.e., in and out of touch with reality), and/or alcoholics. It was like being trapped in a madhouse at times. I kept thinking, "This is a nightmare. In my home, I wouldn't be afraid of anyone making threats or attacking me. It is safe from any kind of abuse, and people who get high are not allowed to enter. There isn't even anywhere to hide in the shelter if a riot breaks out."

Terri

#7333

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Wed Aug 26, 2009 2:56 pm
Subject: There's No Place Like Home...

arizona_terri

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Hi Folks!

If I had stayed at the homeless shelter any longer I would have had another breakdown. It was a jolting reminder why I ceased contact with family years ago. Even if I did want to have a relationship with any of them, they've been avoiding me altogether since they told me I'd never find an attorney to sue certain programs.

A number of the women at the shelter were explosive, disturbed (i.e., in and out of touch with reality), and/or alcoholics. It was like being trapped in a madhouse at times. I kept thinking, "This is a nightmare. In my home, I wouldn't be afraid of anyone making threats or attacking me. It is safe from any kind of abuse, and people who get high are not allowed to enter. There isn't even anywhere to hide in the shelter if a riot breaks out."

Terri

#7332

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Aug 25, 2009 6:58 pm
Subject: Re: How Strange...

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While on the topic of the shelter: the one I stayed at was dangerous. Before I left, perhaps due to the heat, some of the women began having racial spats. One time, a Latino woman was absolutely screaming at and threatening a Caucasian woman. She was drunk earlier. She uttered such foul things, like how the Caucasian woman had a "smelly p*ssy!" I don't want to post more here, I am just including that one example to illustrate why I was so physically sick all the time at the shelter. The Latino woman attacked and another Caucasian woman intervened. Etc.

I about peed my pants while watching all of them. I was clinging to my cot and ready to dive under it because all I could think was, "Oh, no, there's going to be riot and I am going to end up getting hurt or killed. I'm just a writer. I won't fight back."

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 12:24:11 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Why would anyone want to prevent people from assisting me with this ordeal? It should be against the law to interfere in this capacity. It's really twisted. All it does is hurt me. They must be mentally ill.

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 11:42:36 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

The man I am referring to in the paragraph below is not the same one who helped me with my home. The one who helped me with my home did not make even one comment on any of this ordeal. Any time I visited his office, he would only discuss the status of funding with me. I.e., "We are still trying to come up with the funds..." so I could move back home. Up to that point, nobody would help me with anything. They would either ignore me or act like they'd get into trouble if they helped in any capacity.

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 11:18:24 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

When I was staying at the shelter no one would tell me anything whatsoever, it was creepy to say the least, except one man who only "urged" me to let this go and move on with my life. Any information I've gotten has been since I moved back home, and has come, ironically enough, from some of the very same people who have been trying to get information from me!

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 11:03:15 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Speaking of strange, this reminds me, there was someone who acted like they heard there was a lawsuit. I thought, oh, they simply have to be mistaken. I am the injured party, the only one who has suffered any loss, no one else has. And I never asked anyone to sue for me, nor was I ever given any money from one. I'd definitely remember if any of these were the case!

I sure as heck wouldn't still be in this financial predicament, nor invested so much time into finding an attorney myself. The only reason I gave up on that, for the time being, is because no attorney acted interested in looking at my documents or even discussing the matter with me as soon as I told them the name of the program. It was so crazymaking and exhausting, it drove me to a breakdown.

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7331

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Aug 25, 2009 3:23 pm
Subject: Re: How Strange...

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Why would anyone want to prevent people from assisting me with this ordeal? It should be against the law to interfere in this capacity. It's really twisted. All it does is hurt me. They must be mentally ill.

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 11:42:36 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

The man I am referring to in the paragraph below is not the same one who helped me with my home. The one who helped me with my home did not make even one comment on any of this ordeal. Any time I visited his office, he would only discuss the status of funding with me. I.e., "We are still trying to come up with the funds..." so I could move back home. Up to that point, nobody would help me with anything. They would either ignore me or act like they'd get into trouble if they helped in any capacity.

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 11:18:24 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

When I was staying at the shelter no one would tell me anything whatsoever, it was creepy to say the least, except one man who only "urged" me to let this go and move on with my life. Any information I've gotten has been since I moved back home, and has come, ironically enough, from some of the very same people who have been trying to get information from me!

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 11:03:15 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Speaking of strange, this reminds me, there was someone who acted like they heard there was a lawsuit. I thought, oh, they simply have to be mistaken. I am the injured party, the only one who has suffered any loss, no one else has. And I never asked anyone to sue for me, nor was I ever given any money from one. I'd definitely remember if any of these were the case!

I sure as heck wouldn't still be in this financial predicament, nor invested so much time into finding an attorney myself. The only reason I gave up on that, for the time being, is because no attorney acted interested in looking at my documents or even discussing the matter with me as soon as I told them the name of the program. It was so crazymaking and exhausting, it drove me to a breakdown.

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7330

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Aug 25, 2009 2:42 pm
Subject: Re: How Strange...

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The man I am referring to in the paragraph below is not the same one who helped me with my home. The one who helped me with my home did not make even one comment on any of this ordeal. Any time I visited his office, he would only discuss the status of funding with me. I.e., "We are still trying to come up with the funds..." so I could move back home. Up to that point, nobody would help me with anything. They would either ignore me or act like they'd get into trouble if they helped in any capacity.

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 11:18:24 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

When I was staying at the shelter no one would tell me anything whatsoever, it was creepy to say the least, except one man who only "urged" me to let this go and move on with my life. Any information I've gotten has been since I moved back home, and has come, ironically enough, from some of the very same people who have been trying to get information from me!

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 11:03:15 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Speaking of strange, this reminds me, there was someone who acted like they heard there was a lawsuit. I thought, oh, they simply have to be mistaken. I am the injured party, the only one who has suffered any loss, no one else has. And I never asked anyone to sue for me, nor was I ever given any money from one. I'd definitely remember if any of these were the case!

I sure as heck wouldn't still be in this financial predicament, nor invested so much time into finding an attorney myself. The only reason I gave up on that, for the time being, is because no attorney acted interested in looking at my documents or even discussing the matter with me as soon as I told them the name of the program. It was so crazymaking and exhausting, it drove me to a breakdown.

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7329

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Aug 25, 2009 2:17 pm
Subject: Re: How Strange...

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When I was staying at the shelter no one would tell me anything whatsoever, it was creepy to say the least, except one man who only "urged" me to let this go and move on with my life. Any information I've gotten has been since I moved back home, and has come, ironically enough, from some of the very same people who have been trying to get information from me!

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 11:03:15 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Speaking of strange, this reminds me, there was someone who acted like they heard there was a lawsuit. I thought, oh, they simply have to be mistaken. I am the injured party, the only one who has suffered any loss, no one else has. And I never asked anyone to sue for me, nor was I ever given any money from one. I'd definitely remember if any of these were the case!

I sure as heck wouldn't still be in this financial predicament, nor invested so much time into finding an attorney myself. The only reason I gave up on that, for the time being, is because no attorney acted interested in looking at my documents or even discussing the matter with me as soon as I told them the name of the program. It was so crazymaking and exhausting, it drove me to a breakdown.

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7328

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Aug 25, 2009 2:02 pm
Subject: Re: How Strange...

arizona_terri

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Speaking of strange, this reminds me, there was someone who acted like they heard there was a lawsuit. I thought, oh, they simply have to be mistaken. I am the injured party, the only one who has suffered any loss, no one else has. And I never asked anyone to sue for me, nor was I ever given any money from one. I'd definitely remember if any of these were the case!

I sure as heck wouldn't still be in this financial predicament, nor invested so much time into finding an attorney myself. The only reason I gave up on that, for the time being, is because no attorney acted interested in looking at my documents or even discussing the matter with me as soon as I told them the name of the program. It was so crazymaking and exhausting, it drove me to a breakdown.

Terri

In a message dated 8/25/2009 1:34:46 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7327

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Aug 25, 2009 4:34 am
Subject: How Strange...

arizona_terri

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Hi Folks!

I interacted with someone tonight who, for some unknown reason, acted like I had money to burn! When I've been in a financial predicament for a time now because of the injury EHRS caused me. I have yet to be compensated for what EHRS did since attorneys won't even look at my documents. No one's been giving me any money, no one's been paying any of my bills, and I sure as heck don't give what little I have away, so I can't figure out why anyone would think things must be going great for me. Even if I had money to give away and wanted to do so, I'd get repairs done, caught up on bills, ad infinitum first. Doh

Terri

#7326

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Aug 25, 2009 12:52 am
Subject: Re: Paramedics

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Hi Folks!

Since this was a lengthy nightmare, I couldn't include everything in a singular post so I may add over time. For instance, in UD the Attorney General was spying on me because he was paid off too.

Terri

In a message dated 8/24/2009 9:46:51 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Obviously, even people labeled "mentally ill" can be raped, robbed, beaten, abused...it would be reprehensible for the authorities to not to believe a word such human beings say, disregard or violate their rights, and blow off their criminal and civil complaints based on this factor.

How many abusers and miscreants get away with crimes by asserting about their victim, "He/she is insane!" and "He/she is always forgetting things!"? Additionally, abusers and miscreants use underhanded tactics which make it almost impossible for their victim to prove contrary, huh?

It makes me retch.

Terri

In a message dated 8/24/2009 2:46:08 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

While staying at the homeless shelter for women, I had this dreadful dream that the paramedics were called on me even though there was nothing wrong with me (aside from tremendous sorrow). I was not remotely psychotic or violent = dangerous. Even so, in my dream I suspected that the culprit behind the (real life) blockage was eager to "discredit" me by falsely claiming I had a "disorder" and demanding I be put on "medication." This way they could evade being prosecuted/sued for what they had done to me.

The paramedics forced me to see a doctor. At first the doctor was snowed into thinking I did have a disorder because, as it turned out, there was not just one culprit behind the (real life) blockage but a group of them in cahoots (Tommy, GNRP, and some agencies). The doctor very quickly realized I did not have a disorder - in fact, internally he assessed that I was "perfectly normal" - yet, he was subsequently paid off to label me "mentally ill" and prescribe meds.

Following that, NO ONE would believe ANYTHING I said, so I ended up losing my mind...

I had a very similar dream more recently, but I would consider it an "updated" version because the latest one included my posts. Ergo, I shall refer to it as UD (Updated Dream).

In UD, out of all the agencies who longed to discredit me, the police department was the most determined because they were terrified of me suing them (in real life, they were not interested in taking a complaint from me and told me contrasting things. One employee at the police department said nothing could be done about EHRS, whereas, another suggested an attorney).

In UD my Mother's ghost appeared and warned me that the first employee at the police department outright lied to me, and the second one knew that if I contacted (yet more) attorneys I would be told that I needed medication for a (non existent) disorder that (allegedly) causes "hallucinations."

In UD the police were so utterly desperate to discredit me that they (covertly!) went through my posts and twisted everything around in an effort to make me appear "psychotic." An example would be: when I posted about nightmares (like UD) they'd write in their report that I had delirium instead. Poppycock!

Another example would be: in UD any time the police failed to comprehend something I posted because it was "way over their heads," or they hadn't done their homework, they claimed I was "incoherent" rather than admit they were "dim" and their so-called investigation was "half-a**ed."

Ad nauseam.

In UD the police forbade everyone from telling anyone about my posts, and threatened to charge anyone who would report them for breaking the law, so they GOT AWAY WITH IT! They were pure evil. I was so relieved to awaken.

Terri

#7325

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Aug 25, 2009 12:45 am
Subject: Re: Paramedics

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Obviously, even people labeled "mentally ill" can be raped, robbed, beaten, abused...it would be reprehensible for the authorities to not to believe a word such human beings say, disregard or violate their rights, and blow off their criminal and civil complaints based on this factor.

How many abusers and miscreants get away with crimes by asserting about their victim, "He/she is insane!" and "He/she is always forgetting things!"? Additionally, abusers and miscreants use underhanded tactics which make it almost impossible for their victim to prove contrary, huh?

It makes me retch.

Terri

In a message dated 8/24/2009 2:46:08 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

While staying at the homeless shelter for women, I had this dreadful dream that the paramedics were called on me even though there was nothing wrong with me (aside from tremendous sorrow). I was not remotely psychotic or violent = dangerous. Even so, in my dream I suspected that the culprit behind the (real life) blockage was eager to "discredit" me by falsely claiming I had a "disorder" and demanding I be put on "medication." This way they could evade being prosecuted/sued for what they had done to me.

The paramedics forced me to see a doctor. At first the doctor was snowed into thinking I did have a disorder because, as it turned out, there was not just one culprit behind the (real life) blockage but a group of them in cahoots (Tommy, GNRP, and some agencies). The doctor very quickly realized I did not have a disorder - in fact, internally he assessed that I was "perfectly normal" - yet, he was subsequently paid off to label me "mentally ill" and prescribe meds.

Following that, NO ONE would believe ANYTHING I said, so I ended up losing my mind...

I had a very similar dream more recently, but I would consider it an "updated" version because the latest one included my posts. Ergo, I shall refer to it as UD (Updated Dream).

In UD, out of all the agencies who longed to discredit me, the police department was the most determined because they were terrified of me suing them (in real life, they were not interested in taking a complaint from me and told me contrasting things. One employee at the police department said nothing could be done about EHRS, whereas, another suggested an attorney).

In UD my Mother's ghost appeared and warned me that the first employee at the police department outright lied to me, and the second one knew that if I contacted (yet more) attorneys I would be told that I needed medication for a (non existent) disorder that (allegedly) causes "hallucinations."

In UD the police were so utterly desperate to discredit me that they (covertly!) went through my posts and twisted everything around in an effort to make me appear "psychotic." An example would be: when I posted about nightmares (like UD) they'd write in their report that I had delirium instead. Poppycock!

Another example would be: in UD any time the police failed to comprehend something I posted because it was "way over their heads," or they hadn't done their homework, they claimed I was "incoherent" rather than admit they were "dim" and their so-called investigation was "half-a**ed."

Ad nauseam.

In UD the police forbade everyone from telling anyone about my posts, and threatened to charge anyone who would report them for breaking the law, so they GOT AWAY WITH IT! They were pure evil. I was so relieved to awaken.

Terri

#7324

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Aug 25, 2009 12:42 am
Subject: Browser Issue

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My web browser keeps hanging whenever I am signed on as AZTerri. It's messing up my computer and really interfering with my productivity!

Terri

#7323

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Mon Aug 24, 2009 5:44 pm
Subject: Paramedics

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Hi Folks!

While staying at the homeless shelter for women, I had this dreadful dream that the paramedics were called on me even though there was nothing wrong with me (aside from tremendous sorrow). I was not remotely psychotic or violent = dangerous. Even so, in my dream I suspected that the culprit behind the (real life) blockage was eager to "discredit" me by falsely claiming I had a "disorder" and demanding I be put on "medication." This way they could evade being prosecuted/sued for what they had done to me.

The paramedics forced me to see a doctor. At first the doctor was snowed into thinking I did have a disorder because, as it turned out, there was not just one culprit behind the (real life) blockage but a group of them in cahoots (Tommy, GNRP, and some agencies). The doctor very quickly realized I did not have a disorder - in fact, internally he assessed that I was "perfectly normal" - yet, he was subsequently paid off to label me "mentally ill" and prescribe meds.

Following that, NO ONE would believe ANYTHING I said, so I ended up losing my mind...

I had a very similar dream more recently, but I would consider it an "updated" version because the latest one included my posts. Ergo, I shall refer to it as UD (Updated Dream).

In UD, out of all the agencies who longed to discredit me, the police department was the most determined because they were terrified of me suing them (in real life, they were not interested in taking a complaint from me and told me contrasting things. One employee at the police department said nothing could be done about EHRS, whereas, another suggested an attorney).

In UD my Mother's ghost appeared and warned me that the first employee at the police department outright lied to me, and the second one knew that if I contacted (yet more) attorneys I would be told that I needed medication for a (non existent) disorder that (allegedly) causes "hallucinations."

In UD the police were so utterly desperate to discredit me that they (covertly!) went through my posts and twisted everything around in an effort to make me appear "psychotic." An example would be: when I posted about nightmares (like UD) they'd write in their report that I had delirium instead. Poppycock!

Another example would be: in UD any time the police failed to comprehend something I posted because it was "way over their heads," or they hadn't done their homework, they claimed I was "incoherent" rather than admit they were "dim" and their so-called investigation was "half-a**ed."

Ad nauseam.

In UD the police forbade everyone from telling anyone about my posts, and threatened to charge anyone who would report them for breaking the law, so they GOT AWAY WITH IT! They were pure evil. I was so relieved to awaken.

Terri

#7322

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Mon Aug 24, 2009 1:48 am
Subject: Re: Prejudiced?

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I've also been telling neighbors I won't speak with them without an attorney. They are not actually friends of mine, yet, have been coming up to me asking for information. I wouldn't want anything said to be taken out of context. Even posts can be taken out of context.

Terri

"If the facts don't fit the theory, change the facts."

~ Albert Einstein

In a message dated 8/23/2009 6:39:26 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

If any of this is not "coincidence" then whomever's behind it is in need of professional treatment; as this is a very sick and cruel way of reacting to a victim's complaint and said victim exercising freedom of speech when their complaint goes unanswered.

Terri

"Mental illness is re injuring the victim, and actually thinking you are justified."

~ Me, Myself, and I

In a message dated 8/23/2009 9:59:10 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Likewise, as mentioned earlier, I used the same cab company for years. It was extremely rare that a driver would make a racial slur or joke in front of me. Yet, not long after I spoke up about DOJ not doing anything about my civil rights complaint, driver after driver started making these in front of me. Some acted eager for me to agree. Did that cab company abruptly hire a bunch of bigots who anticipate white customers will shout, "Amen!" to their garbage? Or did this happen because the person who spoke up about DOJ is not African-American?

Terri

"Justice is conscience, not a personal conscience but the conscience of the whole of humanity. Those who clearly recognize the voice of their own conscience usually recognize also the voice of justice."

~ Alexander Solzhenitsyn

In a message dated 8/23/2009 7:56:22 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

I wonder if the United States Department of Justice is prejudiced? They never answered any of the e-mails or letters I wrote them re: CSA (the first e-mail being sent to them on 08/13/2008). I can't help but ask: if this organization was run by Caucasians and I was an African-American woman, for instance, would USDOJ have immediately put an end to their illegal tactics? Instead, they permitted all of this to go on until I had another breakdown and had to live in a shelter.

Terri