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Name of Movie

Hi Folks!

Does anyone know the name of this movie? I saw it some years ago (I think it was a movie of the week) so I can't remember too much detail now and I want to research it. So if you know the title or an actor's name...

In essence, there was this evil judge who wanted to get his hands on his wife's fortune (I don't know if she was already wealthy or about to inherit) so he tried to drive her to suicide. When her suicide attempt "failed" she began to catch on to what he was doing. She begged people for help but no one would listen to her because of his authority or connections.

Since driving her to suicide didn't work, he then decided to have her committed to a mental hospital or institution (I guess so he could embezzle). Initially, the judge had the doctor and most everyone else convinced that his wife was "crazy" and a "danger to herself" (something to this effect). In reality, of course, he was the dangerous one. And someone else who aided and abetted him - whether to drive her to suicide and/or make her look insane.

Nonetheless, the more the doctor got to know her the more he realized that her husband was up to no good. All I can remember about the ending is that the doctor helped the wife turn the tables on her husband by exposing him.

Terri

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#6928

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sat Feb 28, 2009 3:07 pm
Subject: They Call Us B*tches

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http://www.dwetendorf.com/Vict_Bitches.htm

They Call Us B*tches

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#6927

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sat Feb 28, 2009 2:58 pm
Subject: FBI Continues to Break the Law

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http://rinf.com/alt-news/human-rights/fbi-continues-to-break-the-law/2674/

FBI Continues to Break the Law

Abuse can come in all forms...

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#6926

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Feb 27, 2009 9:11 pm
Subject: Family Contact

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Family Contact

Hi Folks!

Sometimes when I post about my family a member of EVA or CoDependents will ask if I still have contact with them. No. My family made it abundantly clear that they wanted nothing to do with this CSA/EHRS matter so for almost a year now I've had no idea what's going on with them and they've had no idea what's going on with me either (not unless they spy on my posts - which would be weird since some of them indicated a long time ago that they think my groups are "just a waste of time," for instance, even when members could post too).

The last contact I had with anyone in my family was either the e-mail below that I sent to an Uncle of mine (in Seattle or wherever he lives) on 3/28/2008, or a phone call to the Cousin referenced to below around that very same time. I explained to this Uncle all the damage/loss CSA/EHRS caused me and I included that my other Uncle, Tommy, did absolutely nothing to help:

"...When (Tommy) finally did respond he did not give any suggestions but merely told me that he and (his wife) were having money troubles of their own, and his attitude in general was so discouraging I stopped reading his e-mails thereafter."

I added that my Cousin "...said he didn't know what I should do (about CSA/EHRS) because it sounds like the problem is "bureaucracy." He could only recommend I contact (another program)..."

My Cousin gave me the distinct impression that, aside from making some program recommendations, he didn't want anything to do with CSA/EHRS either.

Now, that's not weird because family rarely wants to bother with me anyway.

Terri

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#6925

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Feb 27, 2009 5:16 pm
Subject: Re: Categories of Psychological Abuse

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There are family members of mine who just LOVE using some of these kinds of psychologically abusive tactics on others.

Terri

In a message dated 2/27/2009 2:45:39 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Categories of Psychological Abuse

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:Psychological_abuse

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#6924

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Feb 27, 2009 4:44 pm
Subject: Categories of Psychological Abuse

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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:Psychological_abuse

Categories of Psychological Abuse

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#6923

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Feb 27, 2009 4:25 pm
Subject: SHUNNING WHISTLEBLOWERS

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SHUNNING WHISTLEBLOWERS

To Shun:

1. avoid and stay away from deliberately; stay clear of
2. expel from a community or group [syn: banish]

Shunning is not uncommonly used against "whistleblowers."

- See http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shunning

A whistleblower is:

"...a person who alleges misconduct. More complex definitions may be used, but the issue is that the whistleblower usually faces reprisal. The misconduct may be classified in many ways; for example, a violation of a law, rule, regulation and/or a direct threat to public interest, such as fraud, health/safety violations, and corruption."

- See http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Whistleblowers

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#6922

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Feb 27, 2009 3:50 pm
Subject: CIVIL RIGHTS

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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Civil_rights

CIVIL RIGHTS

What are these? There are those who think I don't have any...

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#6921

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Feb 27, 2009 3:22 pm
Subject: OSTRACISM

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http://www.psych.purdue.edu/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=325&Itemid=82

COLD SHOULDER, SILENT TREATMENT DO MORE HARM THAN GOOD

"Excluding and ignoring people, such as giving them the cold shoulder or silent treatment, are used to punish or manipulate, and people may not realize the emotional or physical harm that is being done..."

"Many people also use ostracism as a tool to gain control of a situation..."

Read article here:

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#6920

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Feb 27, 2009 3:13 pm
Subject: THE SILENT TREATMENT - WHAT YOU ARE SAYING BY NOT SAYING ANYTHING AT ALL

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http://www.kensavage.com/archives/silent-treatment/

THE SILENT TREATMENT - WHAT YOU ARE SAYING BY NOT SAYING ANYTHING AT ALL

Side Note: By posting this link I am not saying I agree with the author's commentary on "blowing up," for instance, but this is one of the first articles I've found on how painful it is to be given the silent treatment. In my case, even though the ones doing this to me are 99% of the government agencies I've contacted asking them to do something about the program I've made reference to in other posts! The author writes that being given the silent treatment (which is also a common tactic of verbal/emotional abusers) "...is a form of torture."

Terri

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#6919

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Feb 27, 2009 2:54 pm
Subject: It's Easy to Drive Someone Crazy!

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It's Easy to Drive Someone Crazy!

Just repeatedly violate their rights!

Crazymaking is "...when our rights are not respected or honored. It is based on four basic rights: THE RIGHT TO KNOW, THE RIGHT TO FEEL, THE RIGHT TO HAVE IMPACT AND THE RIGHT TO SPACE."

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#6915

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Thu Feb 26, 2009 4:43 pm
Subject: Adult Children and Dysfunctional Families

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http://www.amazon.com/Adult-Children-Secrets-Dysfunctional-Families/dp/0932194532/ref=cm_cr_pr_sims_t

Adult Children: The Secrets of Dysfunctional Families by John C. Friel Ph.D. and Linda D. Friel M.A.

Description
It is estimated that as many as 34 million people grew up in alcoholic homes but what about the rest of us? The authors provide a readable explanation of what happens to those of us who have had no alcoholism, but did have perfectionism, workaholism, compulsive overeating, intimacy problems, etc.

An Adult Child's Guide to What's 'Normal' by John C. Friel Ph.D. and Linda D. Friel M.A.

Description
A practical guide to begin dealing with the pain and trauma of being raised in a dysfunctional family. Your parents may not have been able to teach you lifeskills but it is not too late to learn them now. This book will help the reader to learn how to respond to the challenges, problems and traps that they are faced with daily.

http://www.amazon.com/exec/obidos/ASIN/1558740902/ref=sim_books/002-2644383-4232442/psybersquarecom

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#6914

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Thu Feb 26, 2009 9:55 am
Subject: Have a Drink or Take a Pill!

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Have a Drink or Take a Pill!

Hi Folks!

I don't think I've asked members this question before and I am really curious as to if any of you have experienced this as well?

Not only were most family members of mine abusive to each other when I was growing up but some engaged in criminal activity. The few times I tried to "report" this (in the latter case, even if it was to warn a teacher that I overheard a family member say they were going to rip someone off, for instance) and my family found out that I told someone about the abuse/illegal act they would then either threaten, hit, or tell me that I needed to take pills (i.e., a sedative to shut me up). They'd also insist to others that I just misunderstood what I heard or had a vivid imagination (to use but two examples of all the excuses they'd come up with to cover themselves).

Have any of you been through similar where your abuser abuses you or does something illegal and then he/she tries to cram alcohol or drugs down your throat so you can't or won't tell anyone? And/or where they also inform others that you have some kind of "problem" which makes you only think you saw/heard any of this? It can be a horrifying concept to those who've never endured this, I know.

Terri

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#6913

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Wed Feb 25, 2009 11:35 am
Subject: Abusers Who Think It's Funny...

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Hi Folks!

When Ms. Flores from CSA/EHRS was playing games with me during phone conversations - I will never forget how she acted like she thought it was funny. If there's one thing that will make me physically sick to the point of gagging or vomiting, even if it's a delayed reaction, it's when one person is abusing another person (whether the target be me or someone else) and the one doing the abusing thinks the whole thing is just so darn amusing.

Terri

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#6912

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Wed Feb 25, 2009 11:28 am
Subject: The Parable of the Tree

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http://tearsandhealing.com/

This Excerpt: The Parable of the Tree

[Today's excerpt is a popular one. Our minds seem to work by relating a pattern in something new to a pattern we've seen before. They will link these together like stepping stones or a chain to ultimately relate a new experience to something we already understand. I think this is why stories are so compelling for us. This excerpt is, of course, a story. It is metaphorical: describing a person; a relationship: expectations within that relationship; disease, and change.

Along with the personal, emotional issues addressed in Tears and Healing come questions about disease. When I wrote this parable, it was obvious to me that in my situation, with a very seriously troubled wife, significant change in her could not come nearly soon enough. Her illness was causing her to act very destructively toward me, and the damage from that was so severe that I knew I'd be incapacitated if I didn't find safety.

But change is possible, and we should all have an understanding of the prospects for change. For those with narcissistic or borderline personality disorder, the current clinical perspective is that significant improvement IS possible. The biggest determining factor is the person's motivation to change. State-of-the-art treatment for PDs now is multi-modal, potentially involving individual and group therapy, social skills training, cognitive-behavioral training, and medication. For sociopaths, even entering treatment is unlikely, and success even less likely. Understanding the prospects for change is a keystone in making decisions. These issues are one of three major subjects I address in Meaning from Madness, which I consider an essential compliment to Tears and Healing. ]

The Parable of the Tree

A man lived in the Great Plains, many years ago. He had only one source of wood for all his needs: a beautiful large oak tree growing behind his cottage. Anyone passing by could see that this was truly a beautiful tree, and of course it was an oak tree so it must be strong. It would protect him from the prairie’s storms and provide shade from the sun.

This man was very happy about his tree. It was really all he had ever wanted to meet his many needs. It was large enough to provide firewood from its fallen branches, its many limbs could be cut as he needed them for building furniture. The man was very happy.

One day the man decided to make a chair, so he took his saw and went out to his tree. He climbed onto one of the lower limbs and began to saw it off. As his saw bit into the wood, the man got a funny feeling. Something just didn’t seem right. As he finished sawing the limb suddenly snapped as if it were brittle, shooting splinters into the man’s eyes. He was surprised and hurt, but he managed to clear his eyes and slid down to where the limb had dropped to the ground.

He looked at the end where he had made his cut and to his amazement he saw not the solid, gleaming bands of a healthy oak, but a pithy, brittle mass riddled with holes. The limb would not serve for furniture - no way. And the man realized that something was amiss. He began having suspicions about his beautiful tree.

The next day the man tried again, for life presses on, and he really needed a chair. So he climbed again to another limb, and began cutting. And again, just as he was about to complete his task, the limb shattered and sprayed him with sharp splinters. This time he was prepared, and managed to turn his head, but the splinters were sharp and they hurt him nonetheless. Again he climbed down, and discovered the same pithy, brittle mass.

With this the man realized that his precious tree was not well. It was diseased. It was infested with an insect, the prairie oak flea, which was known to cripple trees, but not to kill them.

As the disease progressed, the man realized that he was not getting from his tree the things he counted on for his safety and comfort. The leaves became thin and scattered, and the tree could not provide the shade that he needed from the hot sun. When storms came, instead of the sheltering buffer he had hoped for, the tree would yield its weakened limbs to the winds and they crashed down on his cottage roof. Once a limb broke right through in the midst of a storm and the man spent a cold wet night waiting for daylight so he could close the hole.

But still, the man loved his tree. It was a beautiful tree. And it was an oak. It was HIS oak. “I love my tree,” said the man. “I know it has a disease, but I love the tree nonetheless. I chose to build my home in its shelter and I am committed to staying with it.”

One day a passing wagon stopped, and the man in the wagon asked, “Why do you stay under this sick tree? It’s causing you so much pain, and there are things you need that it doesn’t give you?”

“Oh, no,” said the man. “ I love my tree. It’s the disease that I hate. The tree is still a beautiful tree, and it is my life.”

“But look,” said the man in the wagon. “Its wood is rotten. Its shade is useless. It harms you in storms when it should shelter you. And you have no furniture because its wood is brittle and pithy.”

“Oh, no,” said the man. “You must learn to separate the disease from the tree. Otherwise you’ll become embittered.”

“Well,” said the man in the wagon, “if the disease is separate, then where is the tree without the disease? I don’t see a healthy tree standing next to a disease. All I see is a pithy, bug-eaten tree that can barely stand on its own. If your tree is such a good provider, why is that you have so little, and what you have is patched and leaking?”

The man thought for a while, and then said, “You know, maybe you are right. No matter how much I say I love that tree, it will never give me the things I need from it. I guess you’re right. The TREE and the DISEASE are all the same thing. I don’t have a tree and a disease. I have a DISEASED TREE. And the longer I hang out under this tree, the longer I’m going to live without the shade and the wind shelter and the furniture that I need, and the more likely I’m going to be conked on the head by a falling limb. Maybe I need to start looking for another tree that can give me what I need...”

The man thought about it, and a little later he decided to look around for another place to have his home. And the man found a spot, even better than the one he had been living in, with a healthy maple growing nearby.

He hated to think of building his home all over again, but he was, at heart, a courageous man, and he decided to try. In a few months he had a new home, shaded in the summer, shielded from the wind, safe during storms, and he was able to build beautiful furniture for his study. He lived there, mostly happily, writing to his many friends who also had problem trees.

His old tree continued to grow in its same spot, and continued dropping limbs during every storm, just as before.

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#6911

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Tue Feb 24, 2009 11:25 am
Subject: TRUST YOUR GUT INSTINCT

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TRUST YOUR GUT INSTINCT

This is a very good example of how important it is to trust your gut instinct when dating someone new. It can help you avoid ending up with another abuser:

This abusive guy I dated years and years back was obsessed with guns. I've never owned a gun in my life and never would. It gave me the willies almost right off the bat the way he'd carry one around under his clothes, in his glove compartment, etc. like he worked for the mafia or something (his occupation was completely non weapon related).

All the same, since my Uncle Kenny (fallen officer) was shot by a bank robber, and my Mother committed suicide by shooting herself, I thought maybe I was just being too "paranoid" about the whole thing and dismissed my gut instinct - even after he got into trouble for bringing one of his guns into work.

Over time, though, I was desperate for someone to take his guns away because he was becoming increasingly unstable with them. NO ONE would do anything about it! Even those close to him who admitted "he shouldn't have guns" didn't want to get involved. So I even went so far as to say I was suicidal because I thought they'd have to take his guns away then but it didn't work.

One time, immediately after I told him I was leaving him, he shot into the room I was in with a BB gun and something ricocheted and hit me in the leg. At first I was in a state of shock because I didn't know what happened, I just heard a loud bang sound and saw some blood on my leg, then I about peed myself. In hindsight, I realize I was very lucky he wasn't using one of his "real" guns because he could have permanently maimed or even killed me.

Since then I've learned to trust my gut instinct a LOT more. I haven't dated in a while because of all the anguish this CSA/EHRS ordeal has caused, but when I was dating and ended up with someone new who gave me that "unsafe" feeling, I ended things post haste. It's just not worth taking the risk no matter how "charming" he may act in other ways!

Terri

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#6910

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Mon Feb 23, 2009 1:54 pm
Subject: WOMENS LEGAL INFORMATION AND ASSISTANCE

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#6909

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Mon Feb 23, 2009 9:56 am
Subject: Re: Mom

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Hi Folks!

Speaking of Mom: after she committed suicide several family members began spreading garbage about my relationship with her. The majority of the time they had no clue what they were talking about and never once bothered to ask ME, "Is this correct?" for instance. I heard that my one Aunt who used to live in FL was the primary offender of this (I'll refer to her as FL for the remainder of this post).

It's a long story but my Mom had very little to do with FL most of her life and insisted that I stay away from FL, too, because she was a "junkie" and "bad influence" (these are the more polite things Mom had to say about FL). FL held a lot of resentment toward Mom over this (she could never take me rejecting her).

After my Mom died, FL transferred this resentment on to me by saying malicious things about my relationship with Mom. That’s how abusers are. They always need a scapegoat. It's quite understandable why I've had absolutely nothing to do with FL for years.

Terri

Hi Folks!

I mentioned previously that if my Uncle Kenny and Grandmother were still alive they'd protect me. Well, if my Mother could come back from the grave not only would she protect me but she would unequivocally DESTROY anyone who ever tried to hurt me. No matter what. No matter who (even if it was family). No ifs, ands, or buts about it. The first thing out of her mouth would be:

"HOW DARE YOU DO THIS TO MY DAUGHTER!"

Terri

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#6908

From: CoDependents@yahoogroups.com
Date: Mon Feb 23, 2009 3:38 am
Subject: File - EMERGENCY LINKS AND NUMBERS!

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EMERGENCY LINKS AND NUMBERS RELATED TO VERBAL ABUSE, DOMESTIC VIOLENCE, SEXUAL
ASSAULT, SUICIDE, CODEPENDENCY, AND MORE

These *numbers and links are automatically sent by Yahoo! Groups to everyone
upon joining EVA and CoDependents, and every two weeks to the lists. Those who
have seen them already and do not need them yet again can just delete this post
every time it comes up. Also, please remember that a volume of articles can be
found on these same topics in the EVA archives at:

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/End_Verbal_Abuse/messages/1?l=1


and CoDependents archives at:

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/CoDependents/messages/1?l=1


*I am not able to (repeatedly) check all the numbers and links I am given so,
please, if any of these are or do become invalid let me know ASAP! Thank you.


NATIONAL SUICIDE PREVENTION LIFELINE

1-800-723-8255

(TTY) 1-800-799-4TTY (4889)

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/help/default.aspx


NATIVE AMERICAN SUICIDE HOTLINE
1-877-209-1266


SIOUX FALLS, SD
211 for the 211 HELP!Line
or (605) 339-HELP (4357)


NATIONAL HOTLINE
1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433)


NATIONAL NUMBER
1-800-273-TALK (8255)


NATIONAL DOMESTIC VIOLENCE HOTLINE

1-800-799-SAFE (7233)

(TTY) 1-800-787-3224


NATIONAL SEXUAL ASSAULT HOTLINE

1-800-656-HOPE


911 For Women: A list of resources for female targets of domestic violence.

http://www.aidv-usa.com/Resources.htm


MenWeb: For physically battered and verbally abused men; the hidden side of
domestic violence.

http://www.batteredmen.com/index.htm


WomensLaw.org: State-by-state legal information and resources for domestic
violence.

http://www.womenslaw.org/


Dr. Irene's Verbal Abuse (Site!): Women can be abusers, too, and in some unions
there are two abusers. Dr. Irene's site covers all types of abuse by men and
women as well as codependency, love addiction, and so much more!

http://drirene.com


BPD411.org: An Internet-based information service and support group. Their
purpose is to provide a safe environment for the education, healing and recovery
of persons who are in a relationship with someone who exhibits traits of
Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Being involved with someone with BPD
traits is disorienting, painful and often damaging.

http://www.bpd411.org


Feeling Suicidal: If you are feeling suicidal now, please STOP long enough to
read this website. It will only take a few moments of your time!

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/


Suicide and Suicide Prevention: Authoritative, in-depth information about all
aspects of suicide and suicide prevention.

http://www.psycom.net/depression.central.suicide.html


DR Ivan's Depression Central: This site is Internet's central clearinghouse for
information on all types of depressive disorders and on the most effective
treatments for individuals suffering from all forms of depression.

http://www.psycom.net/depression.central.html


Codependence: The Dance of Wounded Souls by Robert Burney. Robert is an author
and codependence/grief counselor who assists with "Twelve Step Codependency
Recovery, Inner Child/Emotional Healing, and Dysfunctional Relationships." His
website has a volume of free information on said topics.

http://joy2meu.com/


Healing from Loss, Abandonment, and Fear: When we grow up with fear and shame we
become adults who live with fear and shame. Accompanying these intense feelings
is a pervasive, chronic sense of loss, ranging anywhere from serious to
profound. The sensation of this loss goes by various names--unhappiness,
hopelessness, depression, emptiness, insecurity, anxiety, boredom. Whatever the
words we use, these wounds have troubled our very spirit. We need to change our
course by putting the cause of our pain in its proper perspective.

http://health.groups.yahoo.com/group/Healing_from_Loss_Abandonment_and_Fear

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#6907

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sun Feb 22, 2009 10:25 pm
Subject: Thanks Listeners!

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Hi Folks!

I know there are still a few EVA/CoDependent members out there listening to me, and I want to thank you for that! I have not come across any free counselor I can talk to who specializes in the kind of abuse/trauma I've experienced; I can't go to my family because most of them are abusers and horrendous listeners in general. They tend to be even worse when you are having a crisis, saying things that only make you feel hopeless; I don't have a boyfriend/husband at this time to go to (and, really, why I am single is nobody's business); and almost all of the government agencies I've tried to share with have given me the silent treatment. So it's been helpful to me to at least know that some members of my group care and have been lending an ear!

Terri

LISTEN...

"The most basic of all human needs is the need to understand and be understood.
The best way to understand people is to listen to them."
- Ralph Nichols

#6906

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sun Feb 22, 2009 6:20 pm
Subject: My Mom

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Hi Folks!

"HOW DARE YOU DO THIS TO MY DAUGHTER!"

Terri

#6905

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sun Feb 22, 2009 3:23 am
Subject: Re: Dreams

arizona_terri

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Hi Folks!

Usually when I am experiencing a lot of anxiety or stress, in particular when I am feeling helpless or defenseless, my dreams do not end on a happy note. For instance, I had one during an afternoon nap where my family told the FBI some outrageous lie about me to cover up that they had broken the law. Even though the family had absolutely no legitimate proof of what they said about me, the FBI just took their word for it because my Uncle flashed his badge. So instead of protecting me when I went to the FBI for help, they just ignored my pleas and started recording everything that went on in my house. Well, some hit man broke in and proceeded to murder me because someone didn't want anyone to see incriminating documents I had, and the FBI did absolutely nothing to intervene! They just sat there and listened to the whole thing. Then they burned the tapes and pretended like they knew nothing about my murder! It was truly one of those nightmares that a body hates having.

Terri

In a message dated 2/17/2009 12:51:57 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Oh, yeah, and you know how sometimes things in dreams are nonsensical or not explained? I don't know how but at one point I saw one of the reports UP wrote up about me and my jaw dropped. I can't remember now what was written, just that I thought, "Oh, my God, what liars! Everything in here is completely taken out of context to outright fabricated!"

Terri

In a message dated 2/17/2009 11:23:04 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

Do any of you have frequent nightmares when you are experiencing a lot of anxiety or stress? When I can sleep for any length of time under such conditions it's not uncommon for me to have nightmares. This morning was one of the rare occasions where my nightmare had a "happy" ending (this is the second time I've had this similar dream).

In my dream, some faceless person handed me a check for $2,000,000 and told me that I "won" something but didn't specify what. He added that, "There's more (money) to come." I told my Grandmother about it (she's deceased in real life) and immediately she urged me, "You have to HURRY and deposit that check in a SECURE account RIGHT NOW before they take it from you!" She didn't say who "they" were.

So most of the dream I was in a state of sheer panic; running and trying to flag down a cab or find a bus. I noticed I was being spied on by UP (Undercover Police) all the while. Finally, I found a bus, explained the situation to the driver, and he replied, "I will drive you straight to your destination!" The entire ride I felt like I was going to pee myself.

We arrived at the bank and just as I opened the door and put a foot inside, one UP grabbed the sleeve of my shirt in an effort to stop me. I squirmed out of his grasp and ran to a teller, "Deposit this immediately, please!" I got the sense that the UP couldn't go into the bank (like a vampire can't enter a church). A teller told me to sit down at some man's desk so he could do the paperwork for me (he was some big shot).

As the man behind the desk was opening some kind of "secure" account in my name to deposit the check into, he got a phone call. At first he acted concerned, then he looked as if he was trying not to laugh. When he hung up the phone he guffawed, "What a character!" I just looked at him quizzically. "Prank phone call," he smiled. I asked him, "What about?"

He responded, "Oh, it was someone claiming to be a police officer named Tommy. He insisted that we CANNOT deposit the check for you because you are INCOMPETENT! What a joker, ha. I can tell without a doubt that you've got all your marbles, so don't worry about it."

I woke up just as he deposited the check and I breathed a sigh of tremendous relief...

Terri

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From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sat Feb 21, 2009 2:06 pm
Subject: Take the Abuse Tactics Quiz!

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http://www.youareatarget.com/miracle.html#Exercise_3-

Take the Abuse Tactics Quiz!

#6903

From: AZTerri@...
Date: Sat Feb 21, 2009 1:38 pm
Subject: Re: Department of Justice

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Hi Folks!

The day I was evicted from my home (approximately a year ago) my one Aunt called me at a neighbor's house and I attempted to explain to her how Ms. Flores was preventing me from getting repairs done. My Aunt interrupted and indicated she'd read some of my e-mails to her husband (my Uncle). I subsequently told her I reported CSA/EHRS to the Arizona Department of Economic Security and her husband, and asked her why no one would do anything about it.

To which she replied, "I don't know. Even (he) doesn't understand...he said it has something to do with (the program) being run by the government."

To which I retorted, "So?"

She had no comment, other than at one point urging, "Can't you just find another program?"

Then I expressed that if I could find an attorney I was going to sue, and she asserted, "Oh, you won't find anyone to sue for THAT (her emphasis)." She didn't elaborate on what she meant by "THAT" but the general inference was that whatever this program did to me was no big deal.

Another Uncle informed me that it was up to me to get out of the "mess" I was in. The "mess" being all the damage and loss CSA/EHRS had caused. He, too, strongly suggested I just find other programs to assist me.

I still fail to see how other programs would help me recover from all this damage and loss, but I've been unable to get assistance from the few other programs I've applied at anyway (one told me they aren't allowed to get involved and then proceeded to give me a really hard time, another told me there was nothing they could do for me but that I needed to go back to Ms. Funding Source yet again, etc.).

Either way, seems my Aunt was right. No one can do anything about CSA/EHRS and to date the majority of attorneys I've contacted have either not responded, sent me to lawyer referral web sites or legal programs for low income persons (who told me they couldn't help - see above), or acted too afraid to get involved. I was hoping attorneys would ask to see my documents and take my case for a contingency fee.

Terri

In a message dated 2/20/2009 7:04:39 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

All I ever get in return is an inhuman response. I think I have 16 of these:

Subject: RE: Need Assistance Please
Date: 8/13/2008 8:56:26 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time
From: ASKDOJ@...

To: AZTerri@...

Thank you for contacting the Department of Justice. This is an automatic acknowledgement that your e-mail was received. It will be reviewed in the order it was received.

Subject: RE: Follow Up E-mail
Date: 10/8/2008 3:21:37 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time
From: ASKDOJ@...

To: AZTerri@...

Thank you for contacting the Department of Justice. This is an automatic acknowledgement that your e-mail was received. It will be reviewed in the order it was received.

Subject: RE: Link
Date: 10/9/2008 3:40:38 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time
From: ASKDOJ@...

To: AZTerri@...

Thank you for contacting the Department of Justice. This is an automatic acknowledgement that your e-mail was received. It will be reviewed in the order it was received.

Subject: RE: (no subject)
Date: 10/29/2008 5:20:39 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time
From: ASKDOJ@...

To: AZTerri@...

Thank you for contacting the Department of Justice. This is an automatic acknowledgement that your e-mail was received. It will be reviewed in the order it was received.

Subject: RE: That's it Folks...
Date: 11/18/2008 8:59:28 A.M. US Mountain Standard Time
From: ASKDOJ@...
Reply To:
To: AZTerri@...

Thank you for contacting the Department of Justice. This is an automatic acknowledgement that your e-mail was received. It will be reviewed in the order it was received.

Et al!

Terri

In a message dated 2/20/2009 6:41:19 P.M. US Mountain Standard Time, AZTerri@... writes:

Hi Folks!

Here's just one of the e-mails I sent the United States Department of Justice over the past six months or even longer now regarding CSA/EHRS. They've yet to acknowledge any correspondence I've sent them. At this juncture, I have no other alternative then to conclude that the employees at DOJ are sorely missing a "sensitivity chip" - that part of the brain which distinguishes human beings from insects when it comes to emotion and feeling.

Terri

Subject: (no subject)
Date: 11/22/2008
From: AZTerri@...
To: ASKDOJ@...

"Excuse me, but I reported what appears to be a crime and I do not feel that I have been treated fairly or with any dignity whatsoever because you've yet to even acknowledge my complaints; leaving me to feel completely helpless, defenseless, and unsupported. I personally do not believe it is right to treat any human being who comes to you for aid in this manner. Thank you.

(Terri)"

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From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Feb 20, 2009 8:41 pm
Subject: Department of Justice

arizona_terri

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Hi Folks!

Here's just one of the e-mails I sent the United States Department of Justice over the past six months or even longer now regarding CSA/EHRS. They've yet to acknowledge any correspondence I've sent them. At this juncture, I have no other alternative then to conclude that the employees at DOJ are sorely missing a "sensitivity chip" - that part of the brain which distinguishes human beings from insects when it comes to emotion and feeling.

Terri

Subject: (no subject)
Date: 11/22/2008
From: AZTerri@...
To: ASKDOJ@...

"Excuse me, but I reported what appears to be a crime and I do not feel that I have been treated fairly or with any dignity whatsoever because you've yet to even acknowledge my complaints; leaving me to feel completely helpless, defenseless, and unsupported. I personally do not believe it is right to treat any human being who comes to you for aid in this manner. Thank you.

(Terri)"

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From: AZTerri@...
Date: Fri Feb 20, 2009 12:50 pm
Subject: Attorneys

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Well, folks, I am going to have to contact attorneys all over again! I hope one listens to me this time since I have documents which prove that Community Services of Arizona and (City) Neighborhood Revitalization staff are all just a bunch of liars. Last time I contacted a slew of attorneys they either didn't respond, sent me to agencies like Community Legal Services (who already told me a long time back that they couldn't assist me in any capacity with this matter), or they acted too afraid to get involved.

Terri