Hi all. my name is Punkie, 21 yrs old. Lately i've become
obsessively worried about having ovarian/cervical cancer. the fear
has become almost paralyzing, i have panic attacks and bouts of
crying. my period is irregular, missing for months then shows up
very light, or just spotting, or even normal. my last period was in
march and since then nothing, before that (february) i had a light
period that lasted 6 days, december and january just spotting. i
spend hours researching symptoms online and sometimes what i read
calms me down but sometimes i get it in my head that i do have
symptoms. sometimes i am almost sure it is pcos i have because i
have some symptoms of that. ive never been to a gyno and im scared
not of going but of finding out something bad. i dont know how i
would deal with it, i cant even confront the idea of having to
inform my family if something was wrong. sometimes i feel like i'd
rather not know, other times i want to know and feel a strong sense
of if i do have it i will do anything to beat it. basically my
emotions are a rollercoaster. also i suffer from depression, panic
attacks and i am hypochondriac, so frequently any things i feel or
see i manage to attribute to something bad. any advice???