I am a pretty new member, and have only really posted once, to share
my birth story, but have kept checking in on the forum. Wanted to
welcome you as well sweetdragonflyblue!! I'm so sorry that you need
to be here. I do hope that you find what you need and are able to
receive a bit of support here.

I am approaching my son's first birthday. I'm not entirely sure if
I have separated him from his birth yet. In fact, I'm actually very
nervous about the next month or so (his bday is 4/12) because I'm
already feeling triggered. I'm not sure if it is b/c of the
upcoming birthday or something else.

I too have been struggling with the aftermath of my son's birth, and
my daughter's as well. She was born 4 years ago. In both cases,
the medical establishment created/facilitated life threatening,
traumatic situations.

However, following my daughter's birth, I was in such shock that I
just threw myself back into work at 4 weeks post partum and kept
overfunctioning, overachieving....when my son was born under very
similar circumstances to that of his sister's birth, the PTSD
symtpoms hit. For the last 10 months, I have been trying to work
through them.

I wish you all peace, healing, and relief from symptoms!