hello,
how is everyone?

We have a new lady who joined us who needs a bit of encouragement
that it is ok to be upset with the birth, and well, you all know...
and then friends and family say crap like, "aren't you so glad about
the baby" or "why can't you just be happy?" Welcome Rachel! Tell us
your story!!

I (Dana) now am 7 1/2 months pregnant and I have another OB appt
tomorrow. I have *yet* to tell him that I am really planning to have
the baby at home (with a midwife- if she makes it)... not sure how
to tell him... he comes in and out so fast it is hard to get the
chance.

Also, I feel I can tell you ladies, but not many other people, that
I sure hope that a "normal" (home) birth (after Talia's suprise c-
sect on vacation away from any friends or support) will prevent a
repeat of PPD, but the rest of my life is kinda nuts, now. (which
raises my risk of PPD).

We are trying to relocate to TN. Dh has a new job, a 911 dispatcher
job that right now is just a ton of training and testing. high
stress for him. We are living with our 6 kids ages 13-2 in a 39 foot
camper. It is usually a mess and hard to keep up with. which can be
depressing... but harder than that is how unconnected I feel. We
live in a fairly nice campground, but it has been really hard to
make friends. When we left Colorado, we had been in that community
for 14 yrs and I could hardly go to the grocery without seeing
someone I knew. I feel so lonely here.

So, I guess I am keeping the OB in case of PPD and if I start crying
and can't stop, I won't wait 4 months in dark agony, I'll go get
some Zoloft or something. I think he is the most VBAC friendly I can
find, but I haven't had a man OB in like 14 yrs! grosses me out to
think of him near me with my pants off. Get away! No checks, yesh!
ick! He has caught vagianl breech babies, so I know he could be
good. I just don't know.

I'd rather stay home and catch the baby myself in the bathtub and
tell the OB when it is all over. I just feel afraid to cut him off.
I guess I need to process all this...

How is everyone else doing?????

blessings!
Dana Walsh
(moderator)