Hello,
I frequently post on 12 step free and sometimes EFTCoaa. I left aa
around 2 years ago. At first I went through a brief period where I
over did drinking and got really sick. twice. I can now see that it
was because I had fetishised alcohol thanks to aa for so many years
and it was a forbidden fruit. After the second time, I called a so
called friend in aa who of course advised me to go back to meetings
and I almost did. My husband, who has always hated aa and has never
had any alcohol problems, talked me out of it. I realized I had a
choice and I could control my destiny. I have not drunk to excess
since July. I now just have a glass of wine with meals occasionally.
The thinking about drinking has disappeared as I have put some time
between my last meeting. I have thrown away all the aa literature in
my house. I am beginning to feel like an adult again instead of the
"child within me" crap that I was always hearing at meetings. Thank you.