I am very discouraged right now. I recently had an exacerbation - was taken to
emergency room with 105 degree temperature and could not control shaking and
chattering. I've had MS since 1989 - remained mobile for 12 years - am now
relying on a wheelchair. There are some problems within our family unit ( I have
5 brothers) . I try to stay upbeat and maintain a decent attitude - My motto has
been "I've got MS but MS doesn't have me."

Well, today I don't feel strong and am very angry with myself . I have had very
bad thoughts - will make a concentrated effort to pull myself together Will
perhaps call a mental health clinic and arrange to meet someone for counseling.

I have two dear daughters - three beautiful grandsons and father of my children
who has been wonderful for the last 10 years. We are divorced have been through
periods of serious counseling in the past. My attitude right now is so poor - I
don't remember how I stayed strong for so many years and brought daughters up
without help from their father. That was another set of problems that I thought
I was rid of.

For some reason, I'm falling apart at the seams. Any advise from the MS group
would be appreciated.

Thanks,
Loni