Sorry it's taken me so long to update. It's been busy. I went and saw that
doctor I was
suppose to see (finally). She said she's not going to medicate me right now
(wooo hooo!!)
I thought for sure she would. But she heard my fears about being medicated and
agreed it
probably wouldn't be the best thing. She told me to start writing in a journal
like a little
note to myself of what I need to remember for the next day or whatever I felt
like writing
and she said it will help in time. I already remember more things because I'm
thinking
about it and writing it down. Don't get me wrong I've had some bad days where I
was off
track for two or three days at a time. But it's not everyday like it was. I
also have a new
dry erase board that I put all my work on so that I remember where I am in each
job and
see what needs to go out. I was also famously bad about forgetting to order
things. Like
I'd go to put in a print order and totally forget to order several things. I've
been getting
better about that too. I had a print order the other day I put in that had
around 50
pictures and I only forgot one. That's pretty good!! the stupid thing was I
went to go
upload that one and freakin forgot again, but luckily it's for an album and I
ordered a prit
almost exactly llike the one I needed anyway so I'll just put that one in
instead. It's just a
proof album for my studio it's not for a client so it doesn't have to be exact.
I'm getting
more jobs. And I'm able to keep up. I'm making some money and starting to pay
off
some of my bills and that has taken a huge weight off. I have to admit not
worrying about
the bills has really really helped me stay focused. I'm just getting into a
groove and it's
working, but I'm worried about a show I have coming up. I am really bad about
procrastinating. Right now I feel like I have no time to think about this show
I have in
September, but I know if I wait much longer it will be too late to order albums
and
whatever else I'll need for my show. How am I going to fit this in when I'm just
feeling like
I'm not such a mess?? I'm really worried this is going to throw me off again.
Also when I
get frustrated I can't focus and it gets really really hard to remember
anything. Sometimes
this feeling can last for two to three days. Does anyone else have that same
problem??
How can I minimize it? I won't be able to flake out for two to three days soon
because I'll
have too many weddings to think about and get out. I need to learn to control
it before I
end up forgetting to be at someones wedding or something horrid like that. Not
the last
wedding I did but the one before thatI forgot the CF cards (can't take any
pictures without
those) and I forgot my flash unit. I had to go no flash and I had to borrow a
card from my
husband. Since then he's been checking my bag the night before we go anywhere
to make
sure I remembered everything. It helps, but he shouldn't have to I should be
able to
remember.

Anyway thanks for reading. Hope everyone else is doing ok too.
Rebecca