The drama is getting easier. We are still broke but I am getting a
regular check. I will be able to afford taking my son out of town for
a tennis trip and I'll be able to buy her some nice purfume. We still
don't have a phone but tomarrow I'll but car insurance. Slowly life
is getting better. I have to take one hundred dollars to renew my
teacher certificates. But I can see myself doing that. Slowly my
life is getting better. My wife is still mad at me. But this is
probably the first time I have gone without sex for this years. I am
ready to hit the wall but I know this is my punishment for being such
a jerk by putting my family through the hell that they have had to
experience. I guess one pulls themselves out of the hole slowly. So
I think it's positive. Thanks group for all of the support--i
appreciate it. Here I know i have a safe place