Hey, You will make it! First (and this is just my opinion) you need
to ask yourself what causes you to make yourself sick. Secondly, you
have a beautiful living child growing every day. And honey, believe
me it may be hard to stop yourself ( I personally wouldn't know) but
what if you hurt your child? Are you keeping it? Because if your
keeping it can you imagine waking up every day and taking care of a
child that you hurt because of something you chose to do? I don't
know but I will tell you something I was terrified of giving birth
but ya know what? I ended up with a C-section because of a condition
that is pretty much toxemia while you're pregnant. I never dilated
past a 3 and couldn't give birth naturally. Plus my spoiled son (lol)
was facing the wrong way. I mean his head was the right direction but
he was laying the wrong way. I don't know how if they're supposed to
be face up or face down but whatever it is he was opposite. My C-
section hurt alot! Even with alot of pain medication but sweetie when
I finally was allowed to hold him (which seemed like forever since I
had to wait on the med. to wear off) everything I had been through
flew completely from my mind. And every day when my baby boy smiles
and babbles mama I think that I would do every minute again just for
him. Every person I have ever talked to that loves their children has
said the same. So while the pain may hurt, your baby will make it all
worth while. I don't know I hope this helps but if you need someone
to talk to just holler I'll be here. All you can do is your best but
hon, if you don't think that you could handle the guilt of hurting a
child that you are carrying then you need to everything you can to
stop yourself. God Bless you and I will be praying that God gives you
the strength to restrain yourself. Always, andreanna










--- In 0000Teenpregnancy@yahoogroups.com, DixieChica00@a... wrote:
> Just sitting here wondering how I am going to make it. I have
an eating
> disorder (bulimia), and it is becoming a REAL big problem with
being
> pregnant. I hate my eating disorder, and it has alreday taken so
much from
> me, and now I am possibly messing my baby up because of this. I
can't even
> get myself to stop puking for an unborn child -- I sweak it will
never end.
> It hurts me physically, so I can't imagine what it is doing to the
baby. I
> feel so guilty right now. I would be pissed off if some lady went
out
> drinking while pregnant, but I let myself throw up all the
time . . . really
> hypocritical. I am also scared to death of giving birth. I am
going to have
> to...well, that is obvious. I think that if I am this scared now
(at 17
> weeks), I can't imagine what it will be like when it actully
happens. I am
> alone and blabbering. I guess I needed to get some of that out.
>
> Marie