Hello,

I'm writing a note here because I really didn't know where else to
post.

My sister and I have had issues all of our lives with feeling tired,
and with zoning out a lot. It has affected every part of our lives.
A number of years ago, my sister got into Crystal Meth and other
amphetamines to stay awake, and though i tried them once or twice, I
was too afraid of htem to continue to do them habitually myself as
she had done.

I often wake up late - with headaches, and from time to time I feel
I am suffocating. I go to sleep with all of the windows open and the
fan blowing despite our often cold weather, and still I find myself
hanging out the window gasping for air.

I want to wake up sooo badly. I have talked to many doctors and
have been treated for depression and anxiety when I reallly don't
think this is the issue. I now have one doctor who is sending me to
the sleep research center at our university for testing in February,
but quite frankly, I want to know why some days I just can't get out
of my chair. My sister is also desperate. They just put her on
effexor and she told me that she could feel it opening up her lungs
a bit or something.

What could possibly be keeping us so abysmally draggy all the time??
How do we get more air? I felt a lot better the day I took the speed
but the odd thing is that my friends and family only noticed that I
seemed 'perkier'. They never noticed that I was on something at all..

I'm soo desperate, and I don't want to wait any longer for a
solution. I feel I've lost 30 years of my life. Ideas?

Thanks,
Alina.