Katherine,
Please forgive me if this sounds harsh, but some people here have
suggested ways you might go about trying to find medical help, and
it seems you discounted every one of the suggestions. Apparently
you did not go through with it. If all else fails, you could just
show up at the Emergency Room and say "I need a doctor." Some time
ago, I remember some other suggestions.
I have noticed that your messages are all typed into the subject
line of the emails. Then the body of the message is totally blank.
I've not ever met anyone who does that, until now.
Katherine, it's much easier for all of us to be supportive of you if
your notes to us have more than one line of what seems like anger or
despair (which is by the way, always in the subject line only).
Again, forgive me if this sounds harsh, as that is not my intent. I
hope you find medical care soon. BUT..... YOU must actually GO to a
doctor for that to happen.
With helpful intentions,
Alena