I've been trying to get some relief from the emotions I've been feeling for
the past two weeks. I went to a new uro-gynecologist and he gave me a
diagnosis that finally makes sense - urge incontinence without sensory
awareness. That means I have nerve damage. What is upsetting me is that
he's still prescribing all the things that have not worked in the past; drugs
that I can't tolerate, biofeedback, and if that doesn't work we go to
electro-stimulation. Who knows what after that.

I feel like giving up. I'm supposed to go for a consultation to begin a new
set of biofeedback visits. I am thoroughly fed up with being examined,
probed, prodded and inserted into. The thought of allowing another stranger
to insert something into my body has me feeling almost suicidal. I've picked
the phone up several times to cancel the appointment but what do I do after
that? Just live with the incontinence? I spent the weekend with friends and
I would get up in the morning to try to get to the bathroom before I leaked.
Both mornings I left a trail of urine across their carpet to the
bathroom....... and this is with wearing an ultra absorbant incontinence pad
too! So there I was at 6am trying to shampoo the strip of carpet to get the
urine out of it. This is not living.

Joyce