Hi Swami-g,

I laughed very hard when I read you're saying "what happened are
your toys being stripped away". :) That's exactly what
happened. :) But the books were very helpful for my ego to keep me
as a slave. There is still one section in a book that I would like
to read it again. This thought comes and goes. And makes me think
like "maybe I've won a battle but not the war" :) I am in stillness
now. But I can still see the mind tring to play tricks on me.

I want to talk about our last energy healing session when I was in
the ashram, in Seattle.

You did energy work on me almost every day when I was staying in the
ashram. Actually being in the same car with you, or having dinner
at the same table with you would have been enough of an experience.
I've enjoyed so much receiving the energy work from you. I've felt
strong waves of energy travelling through out my body. I've felt my
chakras, my energy bodies like never before. I said to myself "I
wish I could receive this energy work every day of my life". But it
was different the last day. It started with joy but it turned out
to be weird. I've started to feel that what you were doing was a
threat to me. I wanted to get up from the table right away but I
didn't want to be rude. About 15 munites later I said to myself "I
would die, I won't stop doing that". You didn't stop. Some time
later I had a vision. Somebody was giving me a cup full of ashes.
I've understand that I've died and those were my ashes. I've put
the cup on a self. There were 3-4 more cups on that self. And this
happened two months ago.

This was the biggest experiences on my path than. Now it is just
what it is. The other day my mind said "you may say everything else
is just what it is but that experience was real". I've stopped my
mind right away.

love

jaya




--- In 0-point@yahoogroups.com, "G" <crystalkundalini@h...> wrote:
> --- In 0-point@yahoogroups.com, "jane doe" <energyhealerny@y...>
> wrote:
>
>
> > Hi Swami-g,
>
> Hi and Namaste -
>
> > I still don't have an internet access in my home.
>
> G: it will come as in all things ....
>
>
> * There was a lot going on in my spiritual life lately, as you
> know. I was experiencing new things. I was understanding the
ideas
> about the path. I was feeling that I was progressing very rapidly
> on my path.
>
> G: what is this "I" that is wrapped up in experiences ? what is
> this *understanding* ideas ? better to continue to direct
> experience rather than gather more ideas about something...
>
>
> * > Yesterday something happened. I cannot explain. I don't see
> myself as a seeker anymore. I've just stopped. There is no
path.
>
> G: Good --- be in the moment !!!! shift into the Now....
>
> * There is no "I". I don't know what happened but I'm not even
> trying to understand what happened. The most important thing for
me
> was my path. It doesn't exist anymore. My books were very
> important, too.
>
> G: the books are a burden of the mind.... the "I" is a burden
of
> limitation...
>
> * > I went to a bookstore this morning to return something. I
was
> going to buy a few books in exchange. I couldn't find a spiritual
> book that interests me. This suppose to be a big change but I'm
not
> amused by it.
>
> G: what happened are your toys being stripped away ? what was
it
> you experienced right after having the energy work ? that all the
> things you were collecting were *useless* .... what is this "I"
> that is seeking to be amused ? go into the depth of it ... allow
> this "I" to dismantle until Source IS ... allow Flow to take
place
> rather than doership stuck in time and substance...
>
> quit looking to be *amused* ... quit looking towards making a
> better ego with more bells and whistles ... let it all go ...
> then you will find that Peace which is ever present as IS....
>
> * > I will write again.
>
> G: ok ...
> >
> > jayashree
>
> Love - Light - Great Peace & Aloha
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