Hi Maria,

I cannot even say what I'm experiencing is better than what I
experienced before. I don't know if this is going to be a good
example but I used to think that I was on a path, going somewhere.
Now I can see that I was on a tread mill, running. Not actually
going anywhere. My eyes were searching something very far from me.
I've just stopped running and started to look around me. It was
tiring keep running all that time. And I couldn't see what's around
me. Except this, nothing has changed.

There is one more thing. Swami-g explained "free will" to me a few
times but I couldn't understand. Life is happening and conciousness
is seeing it through my eyes. Sometimes a thought appears in the
mind and the body follows that thought. There becomes action. I
cannot say that I am the watcher of all these. I guess as long as I
think that I am the thinker and I am the doer, the "I" exists. If
there is no "I", we cannot talk about "free will" either. (I'm just
writing, not actually looking for answers anymore) :)

Love

Jaya


--- In 0-point@yahoogroups.com, maria luisa <mlcanow@y...> wrote:
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> > From: "jane doe"
> > <energyhealerny@y...>
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> > Date: Thu, 07 Jul 2005 16:10:14 -0000
> > From: "jane doe" <energyhealerny@y...>
> > Subject: update
> >
> > Hi Swami-g,
> >
> > I still don't have an internet access in my home.
> >
> > There was a lot going on in my spiritual life
> > lately, as you know. I
> > was experiencing new things. I was understanding
> > the ideas about the
> > path. I was feeling that I was progressing very
> > rapidly on my path.
> >
> > Yesterday something happened. I cannot explain. I
> > don't see myself
> > as a seeker anymore. I've just stopped. There is
> > no path. There is
> > no "I". I don't know what happened but I'm not even
> > trying to
> > understand what happened. The most important thing
> > for me was my
> > path. It doesn't exist anymore. My books were very
> > important, too.
> > I went to a bookstore this morning to return
> > something. I was going
> > to buy a few books in exchange. I couldn't find a
> > spiritual book
> > that interests me. This suppose to be a big change
> > but I'm not
> > amused by it.
> >
> > I will write again.
> >
> > jayashree
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>
> Aren´t these good news?
> Very happy for you, jayashree.
>
> Love,
> Maria
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