e and Blessings Sat*Chit*Anand Shanti-Shanti-Shanti OM



Dearest Swamiji-

Namaste

Having finally returned home from San Francisco, my lovely
Avlokita and I meditated together tonight listening to the mantras
that you have given her.

G: that was Unauthorized ...... she should Not have allowed
you access to them and she knows this ..... i am very
disappointed that she has overstepped the boundaries in this
..... UNLESS you have taken Diksha and have a foundation in
place ---- they can activate something you are not prepared for
.....

* After the meditation, she performed some "energy work" on
me, done by holding and touching various parts of the body.
There were some strange things that I've never before
encountered, and I was hoping to share them with you and
humbly ask for your wisdom on what I noted.

* Before this, however, I suppose I should say a few things
about how things once were. I have seen colors in my dreams
since I was about eight years old. Ironically, I'm extremely
colorblind, and can never tell one color from any other; however,
when I dream or "envision" colors, I always know right off the bat
what it is. I tend to dream a lot in blue, and my very vivid dreams
are always centered around a "blue" theme (all blue clothing,
blue books, blue furniture, and in one case, blue wasps that
swam in a crystal blue water). I also am frequented by an odd
sensation when I am completely still before sleep. I see things
flying at me, coming at me fast and furious, completely filling my
field of "vision," almost in such a way that it gives me a glimpse
of infinity. These objects come to me, and then grow so large I
can no longer comprehend them. At that point I hear and mostly
feel a large SNAP in my brain, which on my more morbid nights
I've mused were a synapse breaking, and suddenly I wont see it.
It will then be replaced by more, and more, until I finally succumb
to sleep. I only mention these things so that you can see where
I've "been," that you may better see where I "am."

* First, the meditation. I noted desires to move my hands in
odd ways, something my wife calls kriyas movements. Usually
they attempted to curl my forefinger to my thumb in a circle, but
there were others. For instance, the forefinger and thumb of
each hand touching the other, my forefinger curled to my thumb
with my middle fingers of each hand touching, or another I noted,
my thumbs, forefingers, and middle fingers of each hand all
touching each other respectively, forming an "O," and putting that
"O" in front of my third eye. In my third eye I could see the room I
was in, with eyes closed, around the outside of the circle of
fingers. However, inside the circle, I got a glimpse of eternity.

G: these are called Mudras ....... and yes it is a sign the the
kundalini is being awakened .....

* I say eternity because I have no other words to put to it. It
was nothing and everything at the same time, a great field of
limitless black, and limitless light. It was all colors and yet none.
The strangest part was that when I dropped my hands, it
remained in my field of vision. Or perhaps it would be better to
see, I remained in it. I felt like I was soaring on wings of light, an
infintismal speck of ether in an eternity of it. I perceived myself
as an atom of air, floating amidst millions of other atoms of air,
something so small that it would seem to be nothing, yet
knowing that it was at the same time everything. How can you
describe something that is seen, yet not seen, felt, yet not felt, all
things, yet none?

G: that was experiencing the starting point of existence ......
the first Blip of Shakti --- Shakti in the rarest form ....... there is
yet further to go ..... so you have had a very deep experience first
hand ....

* My wife asked me afterwards if I saw colors. I told her I did
not, but also said that I couldn't explain what I did see. The
reason is, I saw nothing, yet I saw everything. In that field of
limitless limitlessness, I saw cities, oceans, buildings, people. I
saw places that I have never before been, all within the blink of
an eye. Yet I /saw/ nothing. This is where the English language
just cannot express what I am trying to say.

G: existence is *Empty* in *Nature* ....... it doesn't mean it is
not without meaning but rather that it is not a solid ...... all of
existence has the same fullness in each molecule or atom ....
the appearances along the way stem out of the IS or Light
beyond lights ---- which through Shakti becomes primal light and
vibration which allows consciousness to come into being as
thought and that Shakti acts like a prism to allow a seeming
variation to take place ......

* When I think of a person in my mind, I "see" the person in
my mind, complete with color and sound. However, all these
things I saw while meditating, I knew I /did not see./ It was as if I
"felt" them instead. I saw an ocean, yet I saw nothing. The
ocean had no color, yet it was not black, white, or gray scale. I
know it was blue, because it was an ocean, but it was not blue.
It was as if I was seeing a color blue that no other human being
had ever before seen. All these things I saw, I did not see, I felt,
yet did not feel. They were all things, yet none. There was no
me, yet I knew of a "me," and that "me" was nothing just as much
as it was everything.

G: yes you are glimpsing Reality through conscious mind .....
it was a Grace to see how Reality IS ...... yes the me is only a
story collected in time while attached to form and separation....
but Self has no me story --- it is even beyond the energetic
equation that you are encountering .....

* Also during this time I could perceive my physical body.
While my third eye was busy trying to see all the best parts of
infinity, my head was living it up moving up and down. It would
start in the down position, then move slowly up, so slowly you
could barely notice it was moving. I perceived each fraction of a
millimeter to be an eternity. When my head moved up an inch, it
felt like it just moved light years. Not only was there that
sensation, but the energy as well. When my head was down, I
felt a calm flow of energy in my body, the kind that makes you feel
a little giddy, like you're floating. When my head was halfway up,
it felt like a tidal wave. I felt like energy was gushing into me with
enough ferocity to drown me. I couldn't control it, I was becoming
light headed, and even my third eye blinked in surprise. When
my head was finally all the way up, I was calm and soothed.
There was nothing in the world but my breath, and my breath
was naught but a whisper of Om.

G: yes the mantras have awakened the Kundalini ...... this is
what was being experienced .... Everything becomes
heightened .... ALL the senses become fine tuned and Acute .....
Om runs through All sound ...... it is the vibration of the universe
.....

* Part II, the energy work, I suppose you could say. My wife
then asked me to lay down so she could do energy work on me.
She started with her hands on either side of my head, which
produced the total calm once more.

G: yes it is balancing the pineal gland ----- also it bring a
calming ......

* No energy flow, me, nothing. An empty void with billions of
soft whispering voices breathlessly forming Om.

G: that is fine ..... it is awareness of a subtle state .....

* However, when she put one hand on my forehead and the
other on the back of my head, I finally felt the energy flow. It
swirled through my head, from forehead to the top of my head,
down the back, and to my forehead again. She worked in
various areas, but I suppose the most notable part of the energy
work was something different.

G: yes this activates and balances the third eye .....

Well, two somethings.

* When she put one hand on my solar plexus and another on
my back, she asked if I felt the energy bouncing back and forth
between her hands. She said that in the past, that was always
the case. I didn't feel that, but at the same time I did. I could feel
what was like a bold of energy leave her hand on my stomach
and travel /every single nerve/ in my body. It ran the circuit, miles
and miles of me to traverse, then hit her other hand a
nanosecond later. Then back. Rinse and repeat. It did this over
and over to the point where my entire body, not just that one area,
was flowing with energy. Once this was done, I almost told her
she didn't need to continue, because my entire body was
balanced. But truth be told, I was enjoying it too much. Later on,
before she had even finished going all the way around my body, I
ended up telling her she should stop. It was like the energy
flowing through me gave off a loud DING like the egg timer in a
kitchen and said I was done. She was very surprised at this, and
asked me if I felt unbalanced, and other various questions. But I
felt great. Every single touch, no matter where, seemed to fill my
entire being with energy; the rest was unnecessary.

G: this is the termed the hara point in Reiki traditions .....
rather than on the back it is more effective balancing with the
Heart ..... then balancing the Sahasrara with the Solar Plexus
..... the solar plexus is where we define the self ..... it is a point
where energy is circulated .... most japanese traditions keep
this as one of their most important chakras (vibrational points)
--- in hindu though we go and activate the whole of the system
as kundalini rises ...... hindu energy tradition keeps it more
heart centered and japanese keep it more solar plexus centered
.....

* Needless to say, between floating in a nothing that was
everything, yet not really floating because I was part of everything,
yet nothing, and feeling sparks of energy playing labyrinth in my
body, I am mildly curious about these sensations. It was
interesting not experiencing the norm of colors when colors play
such a big part in my dreams and "visions." It was very
interesting to me that I seemed to perceive more than ever
before. Now that my novel is complete, it would probably be
good for me to end it here.

G: you were on the point of the rarest of phenomena .....
eventually even this rarefied experience will go further ..... there
is yet another step ..... but you were afforded a Great Grace to
be able to experience Shakti at her deepest level ....... beyond
that is Absolute .....

* Thank you for your valuable time and limitless patience.

G: my suggestion is that you take Diksha ..... Soon .... but of
course that is up to you ....

The REASON people having take Diksha are not to give out the
mantras is Because it CAN activate the Kundalini ----- this is not
a joke .... and it is Imperative to be under the umbrella
and Guidance of a Kundalini Completed Sat Guru that can
continue to give you guidance and keep you more centered and
balanced throughout the journey ......

i would like to see Centers being developed where meditation
and healing may continue forward .... this is the vision here ....
places that i can travel between to give ongoing aide to those
who are Ready to make this journey to Liberation .....


Sincerely and humbly,

Steve

Love - Light - Great Peace & IS
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